Roots Before Branches

Resilient

Some days the voices force me to believe,
I am so fucking ugly.
And nobody on this earth could ever love me,
I am the embodiment of a disease.
I'll never be happy,
Starving and skinny,
Nobody loves me.
Nobody loves me.

SIKE!
I've read one too many self-help books,
To know it's never been about the looks.
I've been to one too many parties,
To know that you can't help but lose what makes you me.
I've seen this story told a thousand times before,
God never did reopen that door.
I can't believe I ever thought nobody would love me,
I am exactly who I'm meant to be.

Everybody loves me,
You guys read my poetry.
I'm not trying to come off cocky,
I just know I'm great at writing stories.
I can collapse into hatred on a daily basis,
But I could never say I hate myself,
No, fuck that, never again.

Nobody loved that black hearted version of me,
Reclusively watching one too many movies.
Everyone loves the light hearted version of me,
Forever and always laughing.

Love is love and enough is enough,
I'll always try to pretend that I am tough.
Love is love and enough is enough,
This journey has been all kinds of rough.
Love is love and enough is enough,
I'll put my dark days down to bad luck.

Maybe one day I'll hibernate in the mountains above Colorado,
I could write lyrics in the snow.
Maybe I'll rekindle relationships long gone,
Put a pin in all of my wrongs.
But right here and right now I'm learning to believe in myself,
Trying to put my doubts on a shelf.
One day I won't let anything hurt me,
I know I'm more resilient than I think.

I've been caught up in a robbery,
I'm so resilient.
I've seen someone stabbed,
I'm so resilient.
I've starved myself for a week,
I'm so resilient.
I just want to smile,
It might take me a little while.
But I know this trip won't take forever,
One day this grim fate will waiver.
You brought a smile to my face,
Caught me as I fell from grace.
I'm so resilient in this silence,
I'm so resilient.
I'm so resilient.
I'm so resilient.