It's not like that (Bill Denbrough x Reader) (Finished)

Chapter Nine: What Once Was

Rich, Eddie, Bill and I stepped into the dusty doorway and looked around at the disgusting interior. It was pretty obviously abandoned.
"I can't believe I pulled the short straw." Richie complained in disbelief
All the dust made me cough a fit but I still managed to get a comment out.
"Richie* would you * please shut* up." I said in between coughs
"You guys are lucky we're not measuring dicks." Richie stated
"Shut up Richie." Eddie quietly said
I rolled my eyes in a bit of annoyance but stayed close to the guys while we walked further inside.
"I can smell that." Eddie told us barley above a whisper
"Don't breathe through your mouth." Rich told him
"Why?" Eddie asked
"Cause then your eating it."
Eddie began to gag uncontrollably causing me to send a glare in Richies direction.
Richie walked into a different room and picked up a paper that was crumpled on some of the trash.
"Rich?" I asked glancing at the paper in his hands
"It- it says I'm missing." He said in disbelief
"Y-you're not missing Richie." Bill tried to assure him but it only sent Richie into a thing of panic
"City of Derry, that's my hair, that's my face, that's my shirt, that's my name, that's the date." Richie compared and now begun to hyperventilate
Bill tried to take it away from him but Richie went into a full anxiety attack.
"It's not rea-"
"NO IT SAYS IT, IT SAYS IT! WHAT THE FUCK, AM I MISSING!? AM I GONNA GO MISSING!?" He frantically asked him
"Look at me Richie , th-th-that's not real. I-IT's playing tricks on you." Bill assured him
Richie finally calmed down and nodded silently.
We heard a soft girls voice on the upper level that made me jump. We walked up the stairs cautiously as her voice echoes more.
"Help me, please."
I begun to shake almost uncontrollably. But I bit my tongue and pressed on forward. We then were staring across a hallway at the girl who was crawling on the ground towards the door from the furthest room.
"Betty." Bill pointed out
"Ripsom." Richie finished
Just as she was there she was dragged away letting out a scream. I hurried over to the door and stood silently in the room seeing that she was gone now.
"She was just here, where the fuck did she go?" Richie frantically questioned
"How the hell should we know." I shot at him
I took a quick glance around the room and noticed someone else who was missing.
"Guys, where's Eddie?" I questioned to them
The door behind us slammed shut locking Eddie out there. Bill tried his hardest to open the door but it wouldn't budge.
"Please be okay, please god let him be okay." I started whispering to myself.
Richie wandered into a second room clearly drawn to something in there. But just as he turned around the door closed behind him.
"FUCK!" I yelled trying to open the door with Bill by my side.
"Bill, what if something happened to them? Something really bad." I begun to freak out and have a panic attack.
The sounds around me faded until they were just a ring in my ears, tears fell down my face as I continuously attempted to push the door open. The ringing disappeared as Bill got the door open and pulled Richie out before the clown could get him.
Eddie appeared out of the mattress in the middle of the room, just he was grey and blue.
"Wanna play loogie?" He asked before black liquid came out of his mouth and begun to burn the floor like acid.
We turned around and saw three doors.
Very scary
Scary
And Not scary at all.
Us being slight idiots went to not scary at all and saw a dark room with a light in front of us.
"Where's my shoe?" We heard the voice of Betty ask
Bill turned on the light and we were greeted with Betty Ripsom hanging from the ceiling spilt in half. We all slammed the door shut screaming.
"WHERE THE FUCK WERE HER LEGS!?" Richie screamed then backed up as the black liquid made its way closer to us.
"This isn't real. Remember the missing persons photo, that wasn't real, so this isn't real." He assured us
We opened the door again and saw that familiar hallway.
"Thank fuck." Richie said
"Where's Eddie?" Bill asked making out relief disappear and concern start back up.
We all heard eddies screams from down the stairs and rushed towards him. I didn't look where I was stepping and tumbled down the flight of stairs. Richie helped me get up then I limped towards the kitchen. We broke through the door and looked in horror as IT was kneeling in the corner with Eddie in his arms.
"Eddie." Richie called out after seeing him there
"This isn't real enough for you billy? I'm not real enough for you?" IT asked pretending to be hurt
"Holy shit." Richie tried to say
"It was real enough for Georgie." IT smiled in glee
Bill gasped in disbelief about that and it was like his heart cracked a bit. IT lunges for us with its rows of teeth ready to bite when Beverly shoved a spike through its eye at the right moment.
"Beverly thank fuck." I said relieved
We all hurried over to Eddie noticing his broken arm. IT turned back to us with his teeth showing through more of his cheek and his blood floating in the air. IT extended its hand and lurked towards us making us all panic. IT swiped and sliced Ben right in the stomach.
"Shit shit shit shit shit." I said backing up to the wall until my head made contact with the surface.
IT left the room slowly and descended down a flight of stairs.
"Don't let it get away." Bill said running after it
I wanted to get up but my knee was in a rough shape right now.
"BILL!" Eddie called out panicking
Bill came back and gathered back to us.
"I'm gonna snap it, I'm gonna snap it." Richie told Eddie even though the rest of us were saying no
"DO NOT FUCKING TOUCH ME! DO NOT FUCKING TOUCH ME!!" Eddie screamed at him
Richie counted then snapped the bone back into place.
We all rushed out of Neibolt and onto our bikes then frantically drove away. We were all so damn afraid.
"You! You did this!" Eddies mom angrily said pointing at us all.
"You know how delicate he is."
"W-we were attacked m-m-Mrs K." Bill tried to explain to her but only got interrupted
"No no no no Don't try and blame anyone else." She said putting Eddie in the car dropping her keys in the process
Beverly went down and tried to pick them up "here let me-"
"No! Back! Oh I've heard stories of you Ms. Marsh. And I'm not letting a dirty girl like you touch my touch my son." She said leaning to Beverly
"Leave her alone." I say before even thinking about it
She leaned right over to me and looked me up and down.
"Right guess sluts gotta stick together." She says to me
I glared at her but kept my mouth shut.
"Mrs. K I-I-I-" Bill tried to reason but wasn't able to die to his stutter
"No! You are all Monsters! And Eddie is done with all of you. You hear me, DONE!" She yelled before driving away.
We all stared at the car as Eddies mom drove Eddie away from us. My leg was in so much pain it was almost impossible to stand, the same feeling was radiating through us all.
Fear
Bill then spoke "I saw the well, w-we know where it is and-and we'll be better prepared next time."
"NO!" Stan shouted taking us all by surprise
"NO NEXT TIME BILL, YOU'RE INSANE!"
I hate to say but Stans sorta right. We almost lost Eddie.
"Why? We all know nobody else is gonna do anything." Beverly defended
That's when Richie lost it too
"EDDIE WAS NEARLY KILLED, AND LOOK AT THIS MOTHER FUCKER!"
He motioned to Bens wounded stomach
"HE'S LEAKING HAMBURGER HELPER!"
I felt so damn lost now, I agree with both sides but I couldn't find the voice to say anything about it.
"We can't pretend it's gonna go away. Ben you said it yourself, it comes back every 27 years." Beverly began before being cut off by Ben
"Fine I'll be forty and far away from here. You said you wanted to get out of this town too."
Bev looked at the boy with angry eyes.
"Because I want to run towards something, not away." She tells him
"He's just sca-" I begun before Richie cut me off again
"Who invited Molly Ringwald into the group?" He asked getting, Bev responded by holding up her middle finger.
"RICHIE!" I yelled at him shocking him with my tone
I wanted so hard to hit Richie, looks like my thoughts control my actions. I smacked Richie upside the head looking at him furious.
"WOW EVERYONE Y/N KNOWS HOW TO OPEN SOMETHING OTHER THAN HER LEGS!" Richie insulted
My eyes watered and my hands begun to shake.
"Richie" Stan said quietly
"I'm just saying let's face facts, real world. Georgie is dead. Stop trying to get us killed too." Richie stood to Bill angrily
"Georgies not dead." Bill told him
Richie sent him a glare
"You couldn't save him but you can still save yourself."
Bills emotions were mixed so much. He looked so angry yet sounded so sad.
"NO!.. Take it back. Your scared and we're all scared but. Take it back" he said shoving Richie
Richie shoved him back causing Bill to punch him in the face.
Richie was barely held back by Stan and Mike as Ben and I attempted to hold Bill back.
"STOP!" Beverly screamed
"This is what IT wants, IT wants to divide us. We were all together when we hurt IT, THAT'S why we're still alive." She told us all
"Yeah well I plan to keep it that way." Richie said walking past Bill and pushing him with his shoulder
I looked as our groups slowly begun to fall apart.
"Guys please don't go." I begged to no avail
They got on their bikes and left.
"Mike." Bev called out
"Guys, I can't do this. My granddad was right. I'm an outsider, gotta stay that way." Mike said before leaving as well
(I know Beverly walked back to her place with Bill but I need her to leave as well for this bit)
I looked over at Beverly who was silent before walking away as well.
I went up to Bill and tried to talk to him.
"Listen they're all just scared okay, it'll get better." I say
He didn't look at me, I don't know if he was even listening.
"Bill, I know it's hard right now but you can't give up. We'll defe-" I was cut off
"H-h-how do you know w-what it's like. L-l-last time I ch-checked you haven't lost anyone." He tells me angrily
That's when I snapped too.
I took my lighter out of my pocket and threw it at him. He caught it and looked at the engraving on the front.

From me to my little girl.
Love Daddy

"My dad died when I was 6, I barely knew him but I kept this lighter ever since. My mom hasn't been the same she moved us to Derry to get a fresh start but, that never happened." Tears were falling down my eyes as I took my lighter back.
"My mom never got over it, she now drinks and at any chance she gets she beats the living hell out of me. You say I don't know what it's like to lose someone when in reality I lost both my parents. Now I'm living with an emotionless hag." I say as I begin to walk away.
He grabs onto my wrist in an attempt to get me to stop.
I yanked my arm back and didn't even turn to face him before saying something I never meant.
"Fuck you Bill Denbrough."
I walked all the way back to my place. as soon as my foot made it in my room I slammed the door shut and slid down in tears.

          Little glimpse into her time alone

The august night breeze was whistling through my window, I locked my door and closed my curtains. The light was dim but I could still see. I took out my old Walkman and put in The End Of Innocence.
I swayed to the music and closed my eyes.   I attempted to hold on to any form of happiness I still had, I looked at my clock and saw it reach 12:00am.
I looked at my roof as tears fell from my eyes.

"Happy 37th birthday dad."