Endlessly

Fifteen

"David!" i yelled entering his home looking around for him but i couldnt find him. i looked around for natalie and couldnt find her either. i shrugged and slid my flip flops off letting my feet hit the cold hard wood.

"oh rosalie, thank god you're here" natalie said as she peaked her head out of her room, i smiled at her and waved, "wheres david?" i asked looking around the house. she sighed and looked over at me, "hes in his room. hes having a rough day" she said as i looked at her questionably and she moved out of the way. i nodded and walked into davids room slowly. all the lights were off besides the hint of the bathroom light entering the room.

"baby" i whispered as i heard a sniffle coming from his bed. he was laying on his side facing the opposite way. i climbed into bed next to him and leaned my head on his shoulder placing soft kisses along it as small sobs left his mouth.

"david baby whats wrong" i asked as his hands wrapped my fingers into his pulling me in a little tighter, "please dont ever leave.." he said as he choked up on his words a little bit. i hushed him and ran my hands through his hair. he finally sat up and so did i. he pulled me into his lap facing him and dug his face into my shoulder as i rubbed up and down his back, trying to calm him.

"you ready to tell me whats going on.." i asked softly, not wanting to upset him anymore. a soft nod came from his head as he looked up at me. his eyes were read and swollen from crying. his lips were also chapped. i placed my thumb across his cheeks wiping the tears away.

"sometimes i feel like im never enough.." he spoke taking a deep breath, "sometimes my vlogs arent good enough for the fans, sometimes i myself am not good enough for them, i cant be around for my friends or you as much as i want to. no wonder why liza left me.." he murmured and sniffled again.

"oh david you know that isnt true.." i said noticing his shaking of his hands fiddle with mine.

he shook his head sighed, "it is true rosalie.." he said running his hands through his extra messy hair.

"David stop, you are more than enough for me. i dont even know why youre with someone like me! you are perfect. you are too good for everyone and anyone. there is no one in this world that is good enough for your sweet soul. i would do anything for you to see yourself in the eyes of the rest of us. your fans love you so freaking much and they dont even know you, imagine what its like for the people that do know you behind the camera. you are the good in everyones bad days david. and for liza, she needed to get her self together and love her self before she could love another. but even in her darkest moments she still had love for you david.." i said as more tears filled his eyes.

"i love you, more than i could ever explain.." i said as he laid his head down in my lap. i continued rubbing my hands through his hair. after a little while of silence the soft sobs had gone away and little kisses had been placed every so often on my thigh. my love for this boy had overflown through me, you could basically see it. i love him more than i ever imagined loving something in this life, and that thought scared me. the thought of losing david takes my breath away sometimes.

"do you need anything, my love" i asked as he nodded placing another kiss on my leg, "no, just you rose bud. thats all ill ever need" he said sighing and his eyes fluttering shut. my heart melted at his words as i smiled looking down at the exhausted boy.

"i love you" i said as i kissed the top of his head as he shifted to look up to me. i moved his hair out of his face and tried to get the stains of tears off his face, "i love you more rose bud" he said as i leaned down and placed a kiss on his lips.

"do you want chipotle?" i asked as he nodded quickly making me laugh at his reaction.

"okay, you get in a warm shower. put some comfy clothes on and get back into bed and ill be back with some okay?" i said standing up off the bed. i grabbed my keys and he stood up to pull me into a hug.

"thank you" he whispered hugging me tightly. i ran my hands along his back and kissed his bare chest and looked up at him, "anything for you david" i said as he smiled and kissed my cheek.

david walked away and closed the door to the bathroom. i waited there for a moment till i heard the shower start running. i smiled and slid my shoes on and made my way to chipotle.

the cold air had hit my legs as i ran back inside davids house with his chipotle.

"baby im back" i whispered kissing the sleeping boy on his forehead.

"hi" he yawned pulling me into the bed next to him. he wrapped his arms around me placing his leg over mine.

"i have your food" i said pointing over to it. he looked up and pressed his lips to mine softly, "thanks rose bud" he said as i nodded, "anything for you david" i smiled as we laid in bed eating our chipotle and watching vampire diaries. i kept catching david looking at me and my face blushed each time.

"what" i said looking over at him as his head laid against his head board, "nothing you are just so pretty baby" he said smiling over at me as i rolled my eyes.

"i love you" i gushed at the sweet boy.

"and i love you" he said grabbing my hand and pulled it to his lips kissing it softly.

"im sorry about earlier.." he said looking over at me with sad eyes. i shifted over in his direction and pulled his face into my hands, "never be sorry for opening up to me" i said as he nodded and kissed my nose.

i hated seeing david the way i saw him today. if it meant for me to be miserable and sad everyday if david could never feel that way, id do it. i would do anything to make sure he was happy and never felt pain. his eyes fluttered shut as his head laid on my chest. his fingers were running along my stomach but had came to a stop as his breathing increased. even asleep he was too good for anyone on this earth, even me.