Vulnerable Thoughts

24. Feelings of unworthiness

So there is this disbelieve
of my worthiness.
I feel so insecure i guess.
My mind is in such a mess.
subconcious feelings coming up,
I am back in the coffeeshop.
I wanted to stop this behavior.

I wanted to focus on my new duties.
I shouldn't forget this deal.
It is ment for me, and I dont want to stop.
I want this to be my drop off.
I am stepping off the ground,
Coming more into me.
I feel much more space.
I see where I have grown,
and where there is more to learn.
And i yearn for the feeling of completion.
For way to long i have been missing that section.
I want it back,
I want to be back on track.

Do what i need to do, heal myself and teach  
that life can be rough,
But when you follow your flow.
It doesn't need to feel this tough.

When I saw her, you were found.  

Feelings of emptiness, i guess we'll go another round. 

Cold feeling, tears comming down. 

I keep walking around with these huge frowns, I feel so empthy. 

Energy  so low, everything feels lifeless. 

Pounding on my head, 

Everything feels heavy, 

allthough its healings, it feels hard to digest. 

May I suggest, because when it comes down to us not being. 

Do you understand that is my unworthiness i continue seeing. 

The reason behind my wanting of being close.