Vulnerable Thoughts

happiness within

I want to start with saying how grateful I am and how blessed I feel. 

I am grateful to be where I am with falls and rises, with myself and and with disguises. 

with love and fears, with judgments and tears. 

this story of mine has come a long way and I feel like we just started. 

I feel like many things has ended for me to become wholehearted.

Seasons go by

If I had to describe where I have been, all that I've seen. 

If I spoke of all that I think or seem to believe

all the laughter's of happiness or the sadness within grieve

the feeling of being part of the world but also feeling apart from the world

the feeling of light within one second and dark within the other

feeling found within one space and feeling lost thinking why even bother

I have been through ups and downs, both internally and externally

I have giving love and received it within great harmony

what is this feeling that I am trying to describe?

feeling alone yet  never feeling alone

what is this search that I continue to risk my love for? 

and why is it so easy to seek it outside of me

I am looking for happiness within, 

I'm seeking this peace of the puzzle 

My world is so big, I don't know where to begin

I am seeking happiness from within

I might fall and spring a muscle 

but as muscle's repair stronger so do I

I am feeling happiness within

Master once told me don't try

you can just be. 

and as I forget to remember

this lesson always stays with me.