Fighting to be his

Chapter 9

I was still sitting on my bed, I had stopped crying a couple of hours ago but I wasn’t game enough to move out of my room. I know that sounds a bit weird for me but I look at it more as protection. Benny has been slamming doors and causing a ruckus the last two hours and the house has only just gone silent. I’m actually worried about what would happen next. I was so tired but I’m not to sure I want to be unconscious right now, I’m pretty sure that could be dangerous. I quietly opened my bedroom door and looked around; I couldn’t see anyone so I slowly walked out of the room and down the stairs. I walked into the lounge to see Mrs Weir calmly sitting on the couch watching the television. I sat down in the love seat which I seem to have adopted as my own and looked at her.
 
‘Benny is in his room.’ She told me without looking away from the show she was watching.
 
I just nodded and looked out of the window; it had just started to get dark outside.
 
‘You should go talk to him.’ She said to me.
 
‘I don’t really think that’s a good idea, he’s pretty mad at me.’ I replied quietly.
 
‘That is true but if you don’t it will get harder. Go talk to him now.’ She ordered me.
 
I sighed and stood up walking out of the room and dragging myself up the stairs. I walked along the hall and stopped outside Benny’s door. I knocked lightly.
 
‘It’s open.’ He replied.
 
I opened the slowly and stepped into the room looking at the ground, I closed the door behind me and stood there not wanting to anger him by getting to close or something.
 
‘Come here.’
 
I looked up, he was standing by his window, and his voice was surprisingly calm. I slowly walked over and stood beside him and rested my hands on the windowsill looking out at the garden.
 
We both stood there in silence, neither of us wanting to start this conversation that we knew had to happen, neither of us wanting to admit that we were wrong.
 
‘I’m sorry.’ I admitted to him.
 
He looked at me but didn’t say anything.
 
‘I know what you did was to protect me and I thank you for that but I just can’t get my head around what has actually happened.’
 
‘I know Allie.’
 
‘I just can’t accept the fact that you did the one thing I never wanted to happen, the one thing I have been against my whole life.’
‘I’m not going to say sorry if that’s what you’re looking for.’ He said shortly.
 
‘I know you won’t and I’m not expecting you too.’ I said to him with an attitude.
 
He growled at me and I looked at my hands.
 
‘Again with the attitude, why can’t you just have some respect?’ He asked me.
 
‘Respect? Benny are you kidding me right now?!’ I said raising my voice.
 
He walked towards me backing me up against the wall. He placed one hand on my waist and the other cupped my cheek. He moved my head to the side and placed his lips near my ear.
 
‘Listen carefully Allie because I’m only going to say this once.’ He whispered harshly into my ear.
 
I started trembling and whimpered in response.
 
‘I’m sick of all this fighting that where doing. It’s ridiculous and it just feels like where repeating ourselves. Just accept the fact that I’ve marked you and try to move on. We could actually be happy but your stopping that by over thinking something that is completely stupid.’ He said firmly.
 
I was angry. I can’t believe he thinks my fear of being marked and controlled is stupid!
 
I pushed him off me and glared at him.
 
‘You think it’s stupid that I’m scared of being controlled Benny? Do you know what I was told over and over while I was growing up? I got told that I was different, that I was special because I was a snow leopard. I was going to be a ‘prize’ for every dominant to fight for. That I wasn’t going to have a choice on who I ended up with, that I already belonged to the prince and I didn’t get any say in what so ever. I got scared of every dominant; I wanted to find my actual mate, my soul mate. And I did Benny, I found you but I had imagined this fantasy world inside of my head where you treated me as an equal and we got along. I’ve been terrified of dominants my whole life Benny. All I want is for you to love me and treat me as your equal, I understand that’s hard for you because of the demon in you but I’m willing to try to stop disagreeing to everything if your willing to try and stop being so dominant. I know I said before that I give up and I’ll be the perfect submissive for you but I can’t.’
 
Once I started telling him everything I couldn’t stop it just kept flowing out of my mouth and to be honest I feel better knowing that he knows all of that now.
 
‘I think I’d go crazy if you became the ‘perfect’ submissive Allie. I like you exactly how you are and I will try to control it I promise.’
 
I walked back to him and wrapped my arms around his waist and rested my head on his shoulder. He wrapped his arms around my shoulders bringing me closer to him.
 
I sighed and relaxed in his arms, I’m actually really tired, from everything that’s happened I think I’m just emotionally drained.
 
Benny pulled back and dragged me over to the bed to lie down I did the same snuggling next to him. I felt him place a kiss to my head.
 
‘Where going back to school tomorrow.’ He whispered.
 
I smiled against his chest and he chuckled.
 
‘Rest sweetheart.’
 
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I stood facing my mirror while I pulled my long blonde hair up into a high ponytail leaving my side fringe out so it rested against my forehead. I added another hair band to my ponytail and looked myself over. I had my purple and white cheerleading uniform on with my little white ankle socks and my black flat closed shoes that we had to wear. I flattened out my clothing before walking over to my bed and grabbing my backpack. I walked downstairs to see Mrs Weir pottering around the kitchen; I grabbed an apple before sitting at the bench.
 
‘Where’s Benny?’ I asked her before taking a bite of my apple.
 
‘Probably still in bed.’ She huffed.
 
‘Could you please go make sure he’s up while I make him some breakfast otherwise you both will be late for school.’ She asked me kindly.
 
‘Sure.’ I replied with a smile.
 
I walked up the stairs slowly, while chewing eating my apple. I couldn’t leave until Benny was ready and there was no way I was going to be late for school. I’ve never been late for school before and I will continue to have that perfect record.
 
I knocked on his door and I got a muffled ‘what?’ in reply.
 
I opened his door and looked inside to see him still buried under the covers.
 
‘Benny?’
 
‘What Allie?’ He asked his voice muffled by his pillow.
 
‘You have to get up; we have to leave soon for school.’ I replied.
 
‘I’m not going.’
 
‘Benny you have no choice in the matter, its school you have to go and I don’t want to be late.’ I told him.
 
He groaned and rolled over onto his back so he could see me. I sat down on the side of the bed near his head.
 
‘Come on get up.’ I said pulling back the covers.
 
He rubbed his eyes and sat up, he reached out and grabbed the back of my head bringing me closer to him and placed a kiss on my lips. I pulled back blushing a little before standing up and walking over to his window. I pulled back the blinds letting the morning light enter his room. He groaned.
 
I turned back around and made my way to the door.
 
‘What are you wearing?’ He asked me.
 
‘It’s my cheerleading uniform. I’m on the team now remember?’
 
‘Oh yeah, forgot.’ He grumbled.
 
‘Do you like it?’ I asked him twirling around letting the skirt blow out.
 
‘Yeah I do and I bet the whole football team will to.’ He growled.
 
‘Benny I’m your, don’t worry none of them losers interest me at all. Now hurry up and get dressed we need to leave in fifteen minutes. If you’re not down by then I’ll leave without you.’
 
‘Like hell you will.’ He growled at me.
 
‘I’m joking Benny, I’ll meet you downstairs.’
 
I left the room and walked down the stairs and into the kitchen. I sat down at the table with Mrs Weir while she drank her coffee.
 
‘Is he up?’
 
‘He’s awake and hopefully getting out of bed right now.’ I told her.
 
She just nodded and sipped her coffee.
 
‘So are you on the cheerleading team now?’ She asked me.
 
‘Yeah the coach asked me to join so I accepted, I thought it would give me something to do seeming I still don’t think Benny is going to let me go running in the forest. I need some sort of exercise.’ I said with a smile.
 
‘Well good luck with that, I think you will make a brilliant cheerleader. I have to go get some supplies so I will see you this afternoon, have a good day at school.’ She said getting and placing her cup in the sink before grabbing her keys.
 
‘Thank you and I’ll try.’ I said.
 
She smiled at me before walking out of the kitchen. I heard the door shut and I looked towards the stairs and then at the clock.
 
‘Benny we have five minutes before we need to leave!’ I yelled up at him.
 
I heard a crash and a door open before he came running down the stairs. I watched him run around grabbing books off the bench and shoving them roughly into his bag. He walked out of the kitchen and I stood up grabbing my bag off the bench and followed him out the door, carefully shutting the door behind me and making sure it was locked.
 
Ethan was waiting outside the house for us; Benny grabbed my hand as we made our way towards him.
 
‘Hey Ethan.’ Benny said cheerfully.
 
‘Hey guys.’ He replied.
 
We started walking towards the school, Ethan and Benny talked to each other along the way. I tried to include myself but the seemed to be in their own little world.
 
I sighed and continued to walk beside them, my hand still tightly held by Benny’s. When we got to the school I saw the cheerleaders standing in a group, they caught my eye and captain waved me over. I went to let go of Benny’s hand to go over when he squeezed my hand tightly and growled lightly under his breath.
 
‘Benny please.’ I asked, slightly begging.
 
‘Later.’ He said before going back to his conversation with Ethan.
 
I looked at the cheerleaders again and mouthed later; they nodded and went back to talking. Looked at the ground as we walked, well Benny dragged me to our lockers. Erica and Sarah were standing beside them obviously waiting for us.
 
‘Save me!’ I said dramatically as I threw myself at Sarah pulling her into a hug.
 
She chuckled and returned the hug.
 
‘What’s going on?’ Erica asked.
 
‘I’ve had to walk and listen to those two talk about crap while I walked along with them being so bored! I tried to go over to the cheerleaders when I got here but apparently I wasn’t allowed.’ I explained to them.
 
‘Ah well, yeah good luck with all that.’ Erica said before walking away.
 
I shook my head and turned to open my locker. I put my bag in and grabbed my English books out before shutting it and turning to the guys.
 
‘You ready?’ I asked Benny and Ethan.
 
‘Yep.’ They said together.
 
We said bye to Sarah and walked into the English classroom just behind the teacher.
 
I sat bored all throughout English and then all through out maths for the first four hours. I really couldn’t wait until lunch.
 
As soon as the bell went I had my books and was out of the classroom. I walked quickly to my locker and quickly unlocked it depositing my books into it. Benny and Ethan hadn’t made it to their locker yet so I walked to the cafeteria by myself.
 
I went straight to the line when I walked in because at the moment it was short. I wasn’t really that hungry so I picked up a salad and paid for it. I looked around the room, Benny still isn’t here, I caught sight of the cheerleaders at their table and made my way over.
 
‘Hey girls.’ I said cheerfully as I sat down.
 
‘Allie, glad you could make it.’ Said Kat, she’s the head cheerleader.
 
‘Same Kat.’ I smiled at her.
 
‘So I was just saying to the rest of the girls that we have practice after school tonight, coach decided to put in another night because of the competition that’s coming up in a month.’
 
‘Sounds good, I told coach that I’ve never cheered before but she didn’t seem that fazed by it.’ I told them.
 
‘Yeah well after you learned the routine so quickly the other day I don’t blame her!’ Kat said to me.
 
‘I agree your amazing! I can’t believe you haven’t done this before.’ Zoe said.
 
‘Thanks guys.’
 
‘So what’s with you and that cute nerd?’ Serena asked me?
 
I bit back a growl when she called Benny cute. He’s my mate, but they don’t know that.
 
‘Um well yeah where obviously together, I love him…’ I lamely said.
 
The girls awed at my words.
 
‘Well even though he’s a nerd he’s ok with us because he’s your boyfriend, we don’t usually do this but there is something about you guys that I couldn’t stand to break up.’
 
I smiled at Kat.
 
‘Thanks that means a lot.’
 
I felt Benny’s presence before the girls even noticed him.
 
‘Well talking about the devil.’ Serena said.
 
‘You have no idea.’ I mumbled.
 
‘Hey Allie, girls.’ Benny greeted while placing his hands on my shoulders.
 
I turned my head a little so I could look at him.
 
‘Hey Benny.’ I said to him.
 
He smiled before grabbing a chair and pulling it up next to me at the table. As he did that the jocks also arrived and sat down. The quarterback Jack sat next to Kat and put his arm over her shoulders. I guess their dating; I’m not really surprised though.
 
‘What’s the nerd doing here?’ Jack sneered.
 
‘He’s Allie’s boyfriend so be nice.’ Kat told him.
 
‘I bet Rick could be a better guy for her, she’s a cheerleader she belongs with a football player.’ He said giving a high five to Rick himself.
 
Benny growled and I grabbed his hand warningly.
 
‘Back off.’ Benny growled at him.
 
‘Aw that’s so cute he’s protective.’ Zoe and Kacey gushed.
 
I blushed and looked down at my hand, which was intertwined with Benny’s.
 
‘No Allie belongs with Benny so just leave it Jack.’ Kat said firmly.
 
The girls started up conversations between themselves and the boys; I turned to Benny who was slightly shaking.
 
‘Calm down babe.’ I said quietly yo him while rubbing his arm with my free hand.
 
He took a deep breath and looked at me.
 
‘Sorry it’s just I’m still trying to control it.’
 
‘I know, but I’m your’s fully so it doesn’t matter what anyone else says.’ I said reassuringly.
 
He just nodded.
 
‘I have cheerleading practise after school.’ I told him.
 
His face scrunched up in confusion.
 
‘I though that was on Thursday’s.’ He said.
 
‘It is but coach added another day because we have a competition in a month.’
 
‘You come straight home afterwards ok?’ He asked me.
 
‘Of course.’ I said smiling.
 
He cupped my cheek with his hand.
 
‘Your so beautiful.’ He told me.
 
I looked down blushing but he brought my head straight back up and looked into my eyes.
 
I heard the table go quiet but before I could look to see what was going on Benny’s lips where against mine in a sweet kiss. He pulled back and pecked my forehead before turning back to look at the rest of the table.
 
The girls had massive smiles on their faces and were raising their eyebrows suggestively at me.
 
‘Oh shush.’ I said to them.
 
‘Didn’t say anything.’ Zoe said before eating some of her salad.
 
‘I have to go find Ethan I’ll see you after school. Have fun babe.’ Benny said to me.
 
‘Ok then.’
 
His lips met mine again in a possessive kiss, most likely trying to show Jack and Rick that I was his.
 
‘See you later Benny.’ I said to him after he pulled back.
 
He smirked before getting up and walking out of the cafeteria.
 
‘Oh my god you two are so cute!’ Serena told me.
 
‘Thanks.’
 
I opened my salad and started eating, joining in with the girls conversation’s now and then.
 
When the bell went I got up and through my rubbish away and made my way to the gym with the rest of the girls.
 
I smiled to myself when I realised that Benny had actually left me during lunch and he wasn’t going to hang around while I had practise. He was trying. Maybe this could actually work.