Jeene Ki Tammanah Hai

EP - 34 - I am Not Leaving You

It was very difficult for her…… To accept this truth that he dint know anything about her…her past……Now she is being accused of hiding the truth….of cheating her family….Which was out of her worst wildest nightmares…..

She thought that her Badi Maa has informed them about her past….The only thing she wanted from the groom was to accept her with her past….She always thought that  her Laksh knew about her past…accepted her with her past….But it turned out to be the other way…He never knew….And when he was made aware of it… he was broken she was unable to see this…
Her friend…Her strength …Her brother Sanskaar claimed that she broke his trust…. That she cheated their parents too…She was losing this battle already…She couldn’t face Maa and Papa too… So she had to leave the Maheshwari house for now…

Ragini was confused now…. Why did Badi Maa lie to her…..Why did she say that she told the truth to them and then told her not to mention her past to anyone at Maheshwari house…..She was under a turmoil….On entering her orphanage she couldn’t face Badi maa….even was not able to converse with her sisters….

She knew that Laksh was hurt….. Sanskaar too was angry with her , for hurting Laksh….She couldn’t sit back…. She couldn’t lose her family….Her brother and her Laksh easily….like this…..Even when she was not at mistake…She decided to make things clear…to convince them and to get them back…..They were too precious to loose easily……She wanted to give a try to convince them….She called Laksh ….Rang him like hell…. But…. On the first day …She thought that he was too angry with her to pick up…On the second Day …Maybe anger still clinging on…. Third Day…After a couple of calls he disconnected the call…She was disappointed…She called Sanskaar…Same there… He too disconnected…
And on the fourth day she messaged him stating that She was sorry and she would like to explain her part and wanted to meet them…..And their reply was …..Hurting

Sanskaar’s reply:
I treated you like a Sister…. But you cheated us… Played with my Lucky’s feeling…. You are dead for me Ragini…. Don’t ever contact me or Lucky…. We will convince our Parents….So , Goodbye
She couldn’t believe her….She felt that Sanky anger as valid….as he felt Laksh’s pain…But she never in her wildest nightmares thought that Sanky would cut off her like she was dead for him….She believed that their relation was much stronger than that…. She tried calling him again… After a couple of calls….His phone was switched off…..She was shattered…But she gathered herself to get Laksh’s reply

After an hour or so….Laksh’s reply popped up , lighting her hopes….

Laksh’s Reply:
Kavya just cheated me… But you killed me Ragini…. I loved you more than my life…. But you embarrassed me in front of everyone…. I made you my life ….and you KILLED me Ragini…..Now you want to explain things…..No … I don’t want to meet you nor hear your voice… You are just poison…..And I wont tolerate you near me anymore….”

Ragini was lifeless by now…. But still she had to try…. She called him continuously But he disconnected as always…. Finally after few more tries ….a message popped up

“WE ARE DONE RAGINI …. Don’t try any more…. You revived my trust in love again and you broke it forever….I am soul less now… You made a dead life…. Thank you ….. And Now I declare Our Shaadi Dead… I Want a divorce"

It was beyond her… Scorching lava of pain wept down her throat …. She couldn’t even cry out loud… She couldn’t believe that the relationship, which created magic for her….Life for her was dead…. The man whom she loved ….is no more hers…. She looked into the mirror…She was a mess….Her identity was a mess…. Her Sindoor and Thaali seemed meaningless… Her strong love for him was now just a joke…. She cluctched her Thalli tightly …..Tears rolled down her cheek…And then she decided that she dint want to live with an incomplete life….Without Laksh …. His love…. She feared the hatred in his eyes….in Sujatha Maa’s ,Papa’s and Sanky’s eyes…. So she Drew a thick line on her wrist with her knife… It was not painful as last time…. Because Pain was inside her…..
After a minute…..her body slowly started to weaken….She heard a startling tap on her door
”Ragooo…..”Ragini…..Jaldi Aao….Your family has come to meet you…Laksh…Sanskaar Sujatha Aunty and your Papa….badi Maa called you to her office” Rucha said , cracking Ragoo’s ears…
This confused her… Laksh and Sanskaar here?? That too with Maa and Papa…. How come….They dint want to see her… and now they were here….Did they come to discuss divorce…. But
Rucha’s voice dint say so…She was confused
“Ruch….Rucha….. two minutes ….. I will come there…” Ragini managed

“ Ok Dear….. Rush…”….Rucha left….

Ragini looked into the mirror…. By God she was a mess… She adjusted her as  possible…and forgot about her bleeding wrist

Ragini ran to Badi Maa’s office , But on reaching the office , her fear cropped up… She carefully hid behind the door exposing only half of her body….And saw all faces glued on her… after meeting all pairs of eyes … in fear…She saw him…And got alerted seeing wound on his forehead … Her eyes welled up…She forget the recent incidents and started to run for him…So did he….

“ Stop right there Ragini…”Badi Maa screamed, Ragini stood at the very point and looked at her confusingly. She looked at her pleadingly then and said

“ Badi Maa….Laksh….He is hurt..” Ragini almost squeaked in her low voice….

“ I said ….STOP… Ragini…” Badi Maa stressed. Ragini and Laksh controlled their steps, stood there looking into each other’s eyes, painfully…. She was caught by his eyes…. In which she saw that deep longing…which confused her with his words… She saw that immense love in his eyes which contradicted those lines…. She just wanted that moment freeze and enjoy the passion in his eyes…. But in parallel… Something was cropping up.

She could hear her Badi maa narrating her painful past …..She re-lived the pain again…. With more intensity……As her Laksh was hearing it and he also was in pain listening to her about her pain. Later Badi maa asked Sanskaar to explain Maa and Papa the events occurred in Maheshwari House.. And she came to know a truth… That Sujatha Maa knew about her Past…even before she put forward the proposal of Laksh…. She knew about her Past…. She was shocked… It was Sujatha Maa who hid her past…. Not Badi Maa…She even told that Laksh was fine with her past….

“ Toh bolo Sujatha…. Did my Ragini hide her past from you?? Annapurna asked in a stern voice. Sujatha stood there , quite with moist in her eyes.” I am asking something Sujatha…. Answer me….?” Annapurna stressed

“ No…. She did not” Sujatha said bowing down her head

“Did you hear that Sanskaar?” Annapurna gave a piercing look at Sanskaar…. The question and her glare pierced into Sanskaar’s face…. Guilt was dominant on his face….

“ you told me that you informed Laksh about Ragini…. But did you really inform him?” Annapurna narrowed her eyes

“ No” Sujatha’s answered… “ I dint………”  Before sujatha could complete her word, a tight slap passed across her face…
“Badi Maa” Ragini gasped in horror…..She couldn’t grasp the situation… Badi maa raised her hand on Sujathaa … Maa….And from then… She could only hear whispers of the argument between  Sujatha Maa and Badi Maa… She was loosing her balance…..She looked at Laksh…who stared at her in tears….Then she remembered about her bleeding wrist… Before she could alert him…. Darkness engulfed her……………………….
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No one could explain the feeling when he saw her sliding down…..and that feeling got worse when he saw her bleeding hand… His senses were not working properly….All he could do was scream her name. he hopefully looked at Rucha who treated his wound earlier …. But found her trembling looking at her sister….But then Sanskaar came in and screamed orders at Rucha to assist him…. They took her to her room….and closed the door….After a half an hour wait, which seemed centuries…Sanskaar and Rucha came out….declaring Ragini to be alive

“She lost a lot of blood ….So we need to get in more blood….Me and Rucha will try to arrange it here as it will be a police case if known outside” Sanskaar said in a monotone and left with Rucha….

Everyone there took a glance of her and left Laksh with her….alone….. He walked into her room…He went near her…..Near her bed , He saw blood droplets….He collapsed and a cried his heart out….Slowly took her hand and kissed on the dressed wound .He pressed his face on her hand and cried out…..Her face lost the light… it was pale and this broke him further.

Sanskaar and Rucha came back and infused blood into her body….They left them alone, assuring Laksh that she would wake up soon…. Laksh was proud of his Sanky that he overcame his fear of treating them …..

After a while, Ragoo opened her eyes and sat up suddenly, screaming  “ LAKSH”  . Laksh gave a quick hug and held her shoulder.

Ragini cupped his face “ Laksh….” She called him hysterically….” How did you get hurt… She moved her fingers along his dressing

“ Shh…. Sh…. I am fine dear……” He consoled her  “Ragoo….. You are fine Na?….” He asked with brimming eyes.

“ Laksh … Please don’t Leave Me…”She grabbed both his hands into her hands and said in a fearful voice…. “ I Love you so Much….  I cant live without you….Please Don’t Leave me…” She pleaded……. Her eyes pooled up she pressed his hands….. “ I dint cheat you…. I never will do something like that…. I love you… I wont be able to survive without you Laksh… You are my life….  I will never betray…. Please trust me…. If you cant trust me now…. No problem… Please give me another chance…. I will win back your trust” She cried miserably…. Laksh too was crying and nodding in negative…. “ And If he you have ny problem with my marriage with Karthik and that case… I can assure that no one touched me than you” Ragini explained herself mercilessly….