twitter. | michael clifford

twenty eight. [c.a.m]

I was packing my bag ready to leave for my hotel tonight, I thought it would be easier with everything going on if I left a day earlier. I wanted to relax and get myself ready for the trip and the meeting. "Casey! Its me!" I heard the door to the house open and close as Callum came in. I came downstairs with my fully packed bag and ran to hug him.

"Hello you, I have a present for you" he smiled, as he pulled a neatly folded piece of paper from his pocket and placed it into my hands.

"what is it?" I laughed looking down at it

"It's from Michael" he said, my smile faded as I went to push it back to him "No, open it" he pushed it back to me. "Please, he said just read it, even if you never want to see him again, just read the paper"

I sighed and opened it, laughing slightly at Michael's messy handwriting.

"Dear Casey,

I wrote this song when I made the first mistake of our friendship when I got drunk and slept with that dumb blonde. But I also wrote this when I wasnt sure how you felt, to be honest, I never knew how you felt about me, but now I do, now i know you hate me. And I dont blame you at all, I fucked up so bad, but I want you to know I will always love you. Anyway, this is our new song called 'If You Dont Know' written about you, ready to perform on tour I hope you like it;

'Tonight we're fading fast
I just wanna make this last
If I could say the things that I want to say,
I'd find a way to make you stay
I'd never let you get away
Catch you in all the games we've played

So go ahead, rip my heart out,
Show me what love's all about
Go ahead, rip my heart out
That's what love's all about

I want you to want me this way,
And I need you to need me to stay
If you say that you don't feel a thing
If you don't know, let me go, let me go, let me go, let me go
If you don't know then just let me go

Let's forget the past
I swear we'll make this last
'Cause I remember the taste of your skin tonight
And the way that you looked, you had those eyes
I remember the way it felt inside
And the name of the songs that made you cry
You would scream, we would fight, you would call me crazy
I would laugh, you were mad but you'd always kiss me
And the shirt that I had that you always borrowed
When I woke, it was gone
There was no tomorrow

I want you to want me this way,
And I need you to need me to stay
If you say that you don't feel a thing
If you don't know, let me go, let me go, let me go, let me go
If you don't know then just let me go

Go ahead, rip my heart out,
If you think that's what love's all about
Go ahead, rip my heart out
Go ahead, rip my heart out
Go ahead, rip my heart out,
If you think that's what love's all about
Go ahead, rip my heart out
Go ahead, rip my heart out

I want you to want me this way,
And I need you to need me to stay
If you say that you don't feel a thing
If you don't know, let me go, let me go, let me go, let me go
If you don't know then just let me go"

And I just cried, and cried and cried. The fact he wrote this song about me, that he felt that strongly about everything that had gone on that he had to put it into words. But I couldnt think that way, I had to put a guard up and block him out. I folded the piece of paper up, placing it in my duffel bag.

"Tell him this doesnt change anything" I said as I placed a kiss on his cheek. "Im going now Callum, have you found yourself a roommate?"

"Yeah a guy I know called Michael, he works in this little cafe downtown" he smiled, you know I'm going to miss you so much Case" he said.

"It's only 12 months" I sighed and laughed. He leaned in and lightly kissed me. "Ill text you everyday I promise Cal" I said as I waved and closed the door, ready for my time touring.