War in Katipunan

Kabanata 3

KABANATA 3.

Laugh.

AFTER eating dinner, uminom na kami. Buti naman ngayon ay may light drinks na silang in-order. Kahit naman hindi ako madaling malasing ay iba pa rin talaga ang tama ng hard drinks. My eyes roamed around the place. Napakasoft lang ng atmosphere at hindi rin naman mabaho kahit na puno ito ng mga taong nag-iinuman.

Ilang minuto pa ay nawala na sina Adi at Rafa sa table namin. Nakikihalubilo na sila sa mga kakilala nila. May mga kakilala naman ako but my introvert ass won’t let me leave my seat. Halos ma-flat na ang puwet ko kakaupo.

Maybe I’m not really good in socializing. I’m more comfortable when I’m just sitting on a couch while drinking coffee and listening to music or reading a good book or watching a good movie. But I considered going out, partying, when I entered college.

Sabi nila, stressful daw ang college, and they were never wrong. It is really stressful! Lalo na’t engineering pa ang course ko. But I didn’t regret choosing this course. I want to be an engineer. I want to build a strong building or houses. I want to provide a comfortable home for everyone in the future. I know I can’t build every people in the world a house, but at least I’ll be helpful to the community someday, right?

Kaya naman kahit anong pag-uudyok nina Rafa saakin na magka-boyfriend, hindi ko na ito nabigyan ng pansin. Maybe I’m just too busy at school or sometimes, my part time jobs, that I didn’t have the chance to think about other things. Or maybe, masyado lang akong uptight to be considered as a girlfriend material.

There are boys, yes. ‘Di naman maiiwasan ‘yon dahil sa isang sikat na unibersidad ako nag-aaral at marami rin namang lalaking nagtangkang lumapit sa’kin. But I entertained no one. I’m too focused at myself that I didn’t have the chance to know other people except my friends. It was just tiring for me to know other people. Or it is because of my perspective about romantic love.

I always believe that romantic love won’t last. Love for God will last. There are also love for friends, family, siblings, or even love for your hobbies or jobs. Love like that will last. But romantic love? It will fade. Or let’s just say that, there is no such thing as romantic love. I never experienced being romantically involve with someone nor being broken because of someone. That’s just my belief.

Nakita kong maghiwalay ang mga mag-asawa. Divorse, annulment and such. Some couples separate because of violence. But there is no love in violence. Some couples separate because one of them cheated. But if there is love, why would they cheat? Some couples separate because they fell out of love. But there's no such thing as falling out of love. It just means that there is no love to begin with.

They are making excuses just to justify that they are in love. They’re not making any sense at all. Pinapahirapan lang nila ang mga sarili nila.

Napailing nalang ako sa mga naiisip ko. I always thought of things like this when I’m alone. I’m not bitter though. I still believe in love but not that kind of love. I stood up when I feel like I’m going to pee. Marami-rami na rin pala ang nainom ko. I walked straight to the ladies’ room.

Palabas na ako sa rest room nang may nakabangga ako. Halos matumba ako dahil sa impact. Ang laking lalaki ng nakabangga sa’kin. Medyo masakit rin sa braso dahil malakas ang impact. I was about to walk away when a hand grabbed my shoulder. Napapitlag ako dahil doon.

“I’m sorry, miss.” I looked at the hand on my shoulder. Parang na-realize niya na nakahawak pa siya sa’kin kaya agad niya itong tinanggal. Humarap ako sakaniya para sana sabihin na okay lang pero nang makaharap ako ay di ako napakapagsalita.

“Oh, it’s you.”

Luthor was standing in front of me, for the second time, wearing that half smile of his. It almost made me drool! Ba’t ang pogi niya ata ngayon? I just saw his picture earlier but seeing him this close made me realize that he’s really much good looking in person. Andaming guwapo dito sa bar pero nags-stand out talaga siya.