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55- Mexican Druglords & Make-up Kisses

I knocked my pen against the side of my desk repeatedly. I couldn't think straight and I think I was distracting Kaylin too because he gave me a nudge from his seat beside me. It wasn't my fault I couldn't stop thinking about her. My English speech ran through my mind which I had to deliver in the next period. How was I supposed to question all Othello's mistakes when all I could think about were my mistakes? I made the biggest mistake of my life with Mia and now I was paying for it.

"Stop beating yourself up man",Kaylin whispered as he leaned closer to me.

"Are you inside my head or something?",I whispered back in question.

"It doesn't take a neurologist to see that your brain is not functioning properly, by now you would have been under Mr Gabriel's skirt with the answers to those equations",he laughed softly as he pointed to the chalkboard.

"I'm going to let that one slide because I don't have time to deal with you right now",I rolled my eyes.

"Cause you're too busy blaming yourself for what happened with you and Mia right?"

"Wrong."

"Right."

"Kaylin."

"Listen seeing her is hard, it's obviously going to be but like you said you're not going to talk to her because it's going to make you seem desperate or something",he shrugged.

"I never said that,Penelope did. I want to talk to her."

"When I think about Penelope all I think about is boobs",he smiled.

"Kaylin."

"Sorry,sorry back to the situation at hand. Talk to her!",he exclaimed softly.

"What if she really is with that Marcel guy?"

"Mr Walker, Mr Dunbar. Do we have a problem?", Mr Gabriel's voice cut through the air and I lifted my head up to meet his gaze.

"No sir", I replied and looked down at my book.

"Finish those equations boys",Mr Gabriel said as he returned to the pile of assignments he was grading.

I stared at the unfinished equations in my book. They were simple, I had already learned the formula and usually I would be excited to finish them. I liked do things I already knew how to do, especially with Math. There was so much to learn so I clung to the simple things before they got too complicated for me.

"Do you want me to take Marcel out?" ,Kaylin's whisper was loud and it got the attention of the girl seated in front of us. It was Aria. Her hair was different so that explained why I didn't notice her.

"On the town?",I asked Kaylin in confusion.

"No you idiot",he rolled his eyes at me.

"You want to assassinate the guy?"

"No. I want to beat him up the same way you're beating yourself up",Kaylin shrugged.

"What good would that do?I don't want Mia to hate me",I explained.

"You've got to show him she's yours",Kaylin said.

"The guy's right for once",Nicki said from behind me.

"She's not mine anymore",I muttered to myself.

"Mr Walker, Mr Dunbar. Are those equations finished?",Mr Gabriel asked raising and eyebrow at the two of us.

"I don't understand this",Kaylin shrugged.

"And I don't understand how you teenagers are unable to close your mouths. The continous talking is going to lead to failure Mr Dunbar",Mr Gabriel's voice was saturated in frustration.

"I am a verbal learner",Kaylin shrugged and I knew I was about to get into trouble for his idiocy.

"Well continue with your verbal learning and you'll be joining me in detention for the rest of the semester."

Kaylin glanced at me and I gave him a look that told him not to even breathe until the school year was over.

"I don't want to hear anyone's voice",Mr Gabriel stated before looking down at his desk and shaking his head. He was probably questioning why he became a high school teacher in the first place. I would have and then I would have ranaway to Mexico and sold drugs. The money would have been better and I wouldn't have to deal with chatter box students like Kaylin and myself.

I looked down at my book and fought the urge to bang my head against my desk. I sensed a movement and immediately looked up toward the door. It was Mia.She walked past the classroom. She moved quick but I knew it was her. I would recognise her awkward movement anywhere.

I felt something hit me on the back of my head.

"Now is your chance, go after her",Nicki said.

"Go for it",Kaylin pointed toward the doorway.

"Mr Walker,Mr Dunbar the rage burns inside me. Detention for the both of you because clearly you do not comprehend English",Mr Gabriel stood up from his chair.

"Uh- can I be excused sir?",I asked standing up.

"No, Mr Walker I have had enough of you and Mr Dunbar."

"I'm really sorry Sir, please",I said as I picked up my bag.

"You walk out that door you will have detention for the rest of the semester",Mr Gabriel's voice was stern and the anger was evident.

I didn't even process what he said because halfway through his sentence I found myself in the hallway. I looked around for Mia and I saw her standing at her locker.

I had planned what I would say to her but my mind was suddenly blank. It always happened when I was around her.

She closed her locker and looked at me. I could feel how nervous I made her. Seeing her,being close to her also made me nervous. It was good though. I could see every curve and line that made up her face. The shape of her eyes. The deep pools of brown that gave it the colour of cinnamon. The way her hair fell just below her shoulders. The beauty spot on her neck that I envied because it got to touch her skin. I saw it all and in that moment I couldn't speak, even though I wanted to say so much. I moved toward her. She didn't move away from me though and I think that's why I did it. That's why I kissed her. Hard. My lips crashed into hers and I felt like I was home. It felt right. She kissed me back and I was alive again.

"Why did you do that?",she asked as we broke away from the kiss.

"-because I love you."

My words did something to her because I saw that sparkle in her eyes. It had returned and it was beautiful. She was beautiful.

"I love you",she said as she kissed me again. I felt her smile into our kiss and my world started turning again.