Dead to me // Colby Brock

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This was it.

This how I want to live my life.

No stress no worries. Only laughter was being heard.

No one cared about taking out their camera and filming someone doing something that would end in them getting hurt just for ''content'' for their channel, instead everyone was to busy trying to keep their hotdog inside of their bun.

You didn't have to worry if someone was making up ''drama'' so then they could make you say shit about another YouTube. The whole time everyone just talked about some cat they saw jump into their lawn last Tuesday and how Brennen nearly ''caught it''.

No one cared about the way you had eaten your hotdog or if you had gotten any sauce onto your shirt. Everyone would just laugh then would forget it ever happen in the next two seconds.

The only worry everyone had was Jeff's shit music taste.

No one cared. It was like a movie.

''You guys are taking forever!'' Andrea whines sitting down next to Brennen who was helping Colby figure out if the packet of marshmallows were out of date or not since they had been in the cupboard for a while.

It was funny watching the boys faces confused as they had pointed to different dates on the packaging. I had rested my legs on top of Jeff's as I laid down on the ground, my body turned to watch Brennen and Colby. For some reason, Jeff didn't care.

''Goes out of date in 3 months'' Andrea says pointing to the best before date that was in the top right corner. I look over at Colby whos face instantly drops as he looks at the numbers, while Brennen dugs his face into his hands.

Jeff and I both let out a roaring laugh, echoing each other before seconds later Andrea's laugh joins in. Brennen shakes his head while having his head placed in his hands, while Colby couldn't help but smile as he looks around the packaging trying to see if Andrea was right.

''And your suppose to be the leader!'' I laugh acting shocked, as I gasp placing my hand to my chest. Colby rolls his eyes at me smiling.

Why is his smile so cute?

Andrea makes a joke but I couldn't hear her. My attention was turned to Colby. He looks at Andrea smiling before looking back down at the ground, his black fluffy hair falling onto his face. He moves his hand to his face moving his hair out of his eyes and for a split second, our eyes meet. For the first time ever I felt butterflies roar inside my stomach.

Oh no

I look down at my hands focusing on the matching ring I have with David. Did Colby really just give me butterflies just by looking at me? It's only been one night since I've joined, that's impossible for me to catch feelings that fast! No one has never had such an impact on me before. Well, Deffently not this quick.

''Before we start I just want to remind everyone that we need to book to do Ava's nickname confirmation'' Andrea says raising her voice pulling me out of my thoughts.

''What's that?'' I question Andrea looking at Jeff who was smiling at this topic.

''It's like a way to say that your apart of us but just with a nickname'' Jeff explains to me. I remove my legs from Jeff's lap as I sit up interested. Out of all the things a nickname!

''So what do you need to do?'' I ask bringing my attention to the fire infront of me. I wanted to be apart of this gang so badly. I've lost so many good things to me this year that there is nothing else to lose at this point.

You only live once I guess.

''All you need to do is shoot a bunch of cans and then the leader of all the gangs will then give you a nickname depending on the first word that comes to his head'' Colby explains ''well except for the fact that you are going to be doing it in front of everyone that belongs to a gang'' Brennen adds on.

Oh fuck.

''Oh that's fucking great'' I whisper to myself. What if I mess up badly? What if I end up shooting someone in the crowd and then I get sentenced to death! If that even is a thing.

First of all, I've never even held a fucking gun in my life!

''Don't worry it's not that scary'' Colby says trying to comfort me but I couldn't help but worry. Who couldn't worry?

''Well, What's your guy's nickname?'' I say watching as everyone looks at Colby smiling before looking back at me.

''Smiley'' Andrea smiles at me a little laugh escaping her mouth. I'm definitely not surprised by that one. It suits her perfectly.

''Charming, which is actually a bit weird coming from an old man if you think about it but it still counts so I'll take it'' Brennen says in a kyle voice, brushing his brown hair with his hand pretending to be an f-boy.

''I got quick'' Jeff answers between laughs as Brennen bites down on his lip, squinting his eyes. I could tell Brennen was only doing this to make me laugh. He did it when we dated. ''Oh my, please stop'' Andrea laughs waving her hands in the air.

''Let's change the subject before Brennen starts taking off his shirt'' Colby laughs as he places his hands together in a praying position ''I will if you want me to!'' Brennen replies back shrugging his shoulders.

''Please don't'' I laugh at him. We meet eye contact but no butterflies had occur.

Shit.

''I got gifted'' Colby says randomly making me pull my eyes away from Brennen's and meeting with his.

''Gifted?'' I repeat him confused as to why he had gotten such a strong word compared to everyone else

''That's what I got, gifted'' Colby says brushing his hair with his hand for the hundredth time that night.

''Well why do you think I'm the gang leader and not Jeff'' he says shrugging his shoulders. ''no offence'' He adds on. Jeff smiles at him waving his hand in the air. ''none taken'' He replies back.

See no drama.

''That makes sense'' I reply tilting my head a bit.

''Wait Colby bro, your eye color just changed like a fucking robot bro what the fuck'' Brennen says waving his hand in front of colby's face.

''Science'' Colby replies back shaking his head as he reaches over for the marshmallows. Brennen looks at me giving me a look.

He knew.