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Shady Belle •ch 20•

"So... where are we heading again..?" (Y/N) clarified grimly, sulking down on Smoke's neck

"An old plantation house that goes by the name of Shady Belle, used to have Lemoyne Raiders occupying it but me and Lenny took care of that" Arthur answered, glancing back at (Y/N)

John looked over to Arthur "you sure someone else didn't come over and live there, it has been a while since you and Lenny came back with the weapons from that place"

Arthur gave a shrug and turned forwards, giving his horse a kick for him to speed up "I dunno, guess you can never know what you're expecting going somewhere these days"

"Especially in Rhodes.." (Y/N) remarked bitterly, causing John to give her a sympathetic glance

"We can't change what's done... we can only move on.." Arthur sighed

"But one day we need to start learning from our mistakes" John replied to Arthur's statement

"Come on it ain't all bad. We've had a rocky run but we'll be ok. We'll get through it" he shook his head as they continued along the road

John gave a sarcastic laugh "Dutch'll fix it, Dutch'll come up with a big plan. Right now, every plan gets us into worse trouble. We're getting further from where we're meant to be going"

"Now you can't put this all on Dutch, you're worked up and rightly so..."

Arthur's words began to grow distant as (Y/N) silenced the world and thought to herself

'I pray that Dutch won't do something stupid to piss of Bronte, by the way he's been beginning to act, so wreaklessly as if nobody will catch on, then Jack is as good as dead..'

She leaned back onto her saddle and looked up

"Now that I think about it, if they get on Bronte's bad side, he could have the money to have the power to kill us all..."

Suddenly she jerked up and slapped her hands over her mouth, accidentally speaking her thoughts out loud

Arthur and John both turned back in concern and surprise

"What was that..?" John asked

"Nothing!" (Y/N) yelped, shaking her head and lowering her hands "its... nothing... just accidentally thinking out loud.."

Arthur's face twisted in worry "you can always tell us about stuff that's trouble you, ya know..?"

(Y/N) had a painful memory hit her like the bullet that hit Sean and she flinched and screamed "No!!" in a panic

She realised that Arthur and John had only looked more concerned and she immidantly ducked her head down embarrassingly

"No no, it's just I can't talk about what happened... for saftey reasons..."

John sadly frowned and sighed "I understand, it happens to all of us at one point or another.."

Arthur glanced over and nodded "just know that whatever happens, the gang will be here to help and protect you"