You.

Happy?

-a week later-
I sigh as I pace the kitchen. The sun hasn't shone through the curtains yet, its hasn't even risen. I put my hands on my face and try to remember everything. I haven't had a dream like that in years, about him. I shouldn't be dreaming about him, I shouldn't have even gone to the reunion.

"Annabelle? Is that you?" I hear my grandma call into the darkness as she flips on a light. She stands there with a baseball bat in her hands and I smile a little.

"My goodness child! You shouldn't be up this late! Did William wake you up?" She questions as she puts the bat down and proceeds to make some hot chocolate.

"No, he's sleeping." I answer solemnly and she stares at me.

"Did you have a nightmare?"

"Something like that, I guess." I run a hand through my hair and sigh as I look around at the blue walls.

"Grandma.. Do you remember Pony?" I ask and she nods.

"Oh, yes. When you came here you couldn't stop talking about him. Poor dear, you were in love." She laughs.

"Well I saw him at the reunion." She stops laughing and stares at me.

"What happened?" She asks and I let it all out. I tell her about his reaction to William and how he said my name at his wedding and how he was getting married to Jackie and how he was a teacher and how we were entirely different and the kiss.

"Wow.." Is all she can manage after I explained everything. I silently sip on the hot chocolate as she stares at me.

"You love him?" It sounds more like a statement instead of a question. I groan as I bury my head in my hands.

"I never stopped." I mumble as tears fill my eyes.

"But I can't focus on Pony, I need to focus on William and bills and my job and everything." I wipe at my eyes. If only things we're like high school when I didn't have a child to take care of.

"You're never going to be the same with him you know that?" She questions and I nod.

"But that doesn't stop how I felt when I saw him again." I add. It's silent for a little bit after that. We just stand there listening to the clock in the corner ticking away the seconds and I sigh. Without warning I walk away from the island and the hot chocolate and my grandma. I quickly pull on a gray t-shirt and some jeans and start throwing things in a suitcase for me and William. I subtly try to pick him up and put him in his baby carrier, Pony said he was gonna be in Tulsa for a couple weeks to visit with Darry and Soda. As I walk out to the living room with William, a suitcase, and a baby bag my grandma comes into the room.

"Where are you going?" She asks, no emotion evident in her voice. I look at her and see the tiredness behind her old eyes.

"Tulsa." I answer and her lips turn up to the smile I've come to love because it looks like my mothers. With that.. I left for the town I hated for eighteen years.

A/N
Hey guys it's Maddie I just wanted to put an Authors Note here. Sorry the updates have been so slow, I've been busy and blah blah blah. You guys know the story.

But there's one thing that I want to talk to you guys about that I haven't talked about before. This has been really hard for me to admit for the past couple years and I'm happy that I've finally been able to come to terms with this.

Ever since I was in fourth grade I've always felt different and I know that that's the most common phrase but I did. I felt like I never really had a crush on anybody like the other girls did and to this day I still don't and I was called weird and unnatural for not liking anyone or being in a relationship, I don't even know if you could call it a relationship because it was fourth grade but yeah. It wasn't actually until sixth grade that I had heard.. the term. And when I first heard that I didn't know what it meant and I was terrified. I cried for God knows how long because I thought that I wasn't normal. I lived in a very conservative town at the time and they were very anti-everything so I felt like I would lose all my friends. I kept it hidden even when I moved to Texas in seventh grade and met a bunch of amazing people. But due to recent videos.. Connor Franta came out of the closet as gay and that inspired me to, wow my heart is beating so hard.

Come out.. and I know i'm going to get comments saying "oh you don't know because you've never been with a guy" or "you're just confused." but the truth is i'm not. I know that I don't have feelings for guys but I do for girls. It's been a really hard few years and I hope that my readers will find a way to accept me and the way I am.

I love you all and I hope that this doesn't change the way you guys see me..

-Maddie Xx