Afterglow

15

"Are you okay?"

"Y-yeah."

Kass stroked my hair. "Sure ka? Kanina ka pa mukhang problemado," she said in a soft tone.

I smiled and nodded. Ramdam ko iyong concern niya. Typical Kassandra. She is so nice. She really cares for her friends, kaya gustong-gusto siya ng lahat.

Okay lang naman talaga ako. Sadyang hindi maalis sa isip ko iyong tweets. I know replying to their tweets will be immature, pero ayoko namang isipin nilang pwede na lang nila akong paringgan nang ganoon.

Naghiwa-hiwalay din kami after lunch. Kass and I went to the arcade to meet Jiela, Callix, and Jess.

Tumambay lang ako sa foodcourt habang naglalaro sila. Playing is just not my thing. Siguro kasi alam kong hindi ako magaling at takot akong matalo. Takot akong makita nila kung gaano ako kahina.

Paulit-ulit kong binabasa iyong tweets nina Zara. Kabisado ko na nga ata.

Landi queen

Nireject noon

I crushed the empty paper cup in my hand.

Boys over flowers

Silent but deadly

A lone tear escaped from my left eye. I kept on looking up para wala nang sumunod na tumulo. I don't want to break down in public.

Much worse, sa tapat ng arcade.

My anger rises every time I see another user liking the tweets or interacting with them. I felt like everyone was judging me. Sana binlock na lang muna nila ako bago pag-usapan. Eventually, hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili ko, so I liked Zara's tweet. I just have to let them know that I'm completely aware of what they were doing.

"Shit," napamura ako nang biglang magtweet si Zara.

"Anong meron?" Kass narrowed her eyes at me. Nandito pa pala siya. I thought she already went back to the arcade.

"W-wala," I shrugged.

Zara @zarawat
Oof, tell P/ierre that her r/ejected girlfriend liked my tweet!!!

I rolled my eyes while typing a reply. Magpapakabitchesa na nga lang sa twitter, hindi pa marunong gumamit ng tamang pronoun.

Liv @lavyrinth_
his** :))

After almost two hours of waiting, natapos na rin silang maglaro.

Tinanong agad ni Jiela kung okay lang ako pagkakita nila sa akin. Kass told her na kanina niya pa ako tinatanong. The others looked worried, as well. I answered with a nod.

I really need to work on hiding my emotions better.

Nagpaalam na ako nang dumating si Dad. Ayoko nang sirain pa iyong atmosphere dahil lang sa katahimikan ko. I don't want to be a burden. Hindi naman sila iyong inaatake. Some of them are even close to Cheska, Monty, Reign, and Zara. Kaya ko na 'to mag-isa.

Pagkarating sa bahay, ibinagsak ko agad ang sarili ko sa kama. I released all my bottled up frustrations by holding my pillow tightly and crying to it.