Darkness and Hope

Chapter 34

I woke up in the morning feeling awful. I felt my head spinning so I laid back even though I wanted to get up, but the moment I tried to do it, I felt weak and dizzy. I laid back immediately. Something was really wrong with me. I knew it. It wasn't normal to feel like that for days in a row and every morning.

The house was still silent, so I assumed that James was still sleeping. I didn't hear him going to his room though, well, our room in fact. He must have gone to bed really late. Nausea took the role in the morning. I turned around in bed wincing and agonizing. I wanted to throw up so much.

"God..." I whispered trying to resist the urge to run to the toilet first thing in the morning. "What's wrong with me?" I muttered.

I couldn't wait or hold it. I got up feeling dizzy and went to the bathroom kneeling in front of the toilet. Nothing came out, but I got a bit relieved. I flushed the toilet anyway and got up to wash my face. I looked pale when I saw my reflection in the mirror. I felt my head spinning around more and more until I felt my legs becoming really weak. I sat on the floor resting and when I felt I was a bit stronger I got up and leaned against the wall. My head was just spinning around too much. I needed help.

Leaning against the walls, I walked out of my room. I truly needed help, for I was about to pass out, and I called James. I had to. First his name came out as a whisper, but then feeling my legs failing on me I sat on the floor and I called his name louder. I called for him twice and then I heard the door of the bedroom opening fast.

"Ade!" He exclaimed seeing me sat on the floor. He was just on his boxers and I knew I had just awaken him up. "What's the matter?" He said crouching in front of me. James ran a hand through my hair visibly concerned.

"I don't know." I said. "I'm feeling dizzy. I felt like I was going to pass out, but I didn't." I explained.

"You look pale. Let's put you in bed." He said.

I tried to get up, but James just grabbed me in his arms and took me to what is supposed to be our room. He sat me on our bed and then sat by my side. "I'm going to bring you water." He said kissing my forehead and leaving the room. James came back some time after holding a tray. He had made tea and toasts. "I think it's better if you eat." He said putting the tray on my lap. I didn't argue, I took the cup of tea in my hands and I sipped on it. James was watching me. "Feeling better?" He asked as I was eating slowly. I nodded.

"I think so." I told him. I ate everything he brought, and I remained still for a while in bed while he took the tray away. He put it on a chair that was by the bed.

"Do you wanna go to the hospital?" He asked.

James ventured running a hand over my face, and I let him do it. I was feeling vulnerable and a bit scared, and what I felt for him was bigger than anything. It was bigger than him, bigger than me...bigger than us.

"No... I don't think that's necessary. I feel better already" I said. I was indeed feeling better if it wasn't for the stomach to attack me again. "Oh no..." I said wincing. My stomach didn't hurt it was just this nausea that didn't want to leave me. "I need to go to the toilet." I warned him.

He stretched me out his hand to help me stand and then walked with me until the bathroom just in case. As soon as the toilet was right in front of me, I just had to do the usual procedure. I kneeled and I spilt my guts out. James patiently held my hair and when I was finished he took me to the basin and washed my face and dried it with a towel.

"That's it Ade. We're going to the hospital right now." He commanded. "You need to see a doctor."

Again I went with his instructions. I took a shower and got dressed and so did he. Holding onto his arm, James took me to the nearest hospital. It took a while until my name was called out. James accompanied me the entire time, not leaving me alone. The doctor examined me carefully and then asked for some tests. Blood tests and an RM.