Coveting My Bodyguard's Affection (Completed)

Kabanata 25: Fianceé

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•CELESTE'S POV•

UNDER the heat of the sun in the white sand beach, the photographer instructed me what should a fierce look pose looked like. This shoot is for the Glamorous Magazine, and one last pose for the morning and I am good to go.

I am wearing a golden two piece swimsuit for the cover. Isang taon na rin akong nasasanay na ganito lang ang susuutin kapag kaharap ang camera. When I won the Miss Universe, first runner up, opportunities flooded in front of me. I grabbed them without second thoughts since these are only my ways of lifting myself up.

When I left this country years ago, I had promised that I will try to change to be a better person. Pain brought me here. Siguro hindi ganoon sumang-ayon sa akin ang tadhana noon dahil sa mga kalokohan, kataksilan at kasinungalingan.

A baby is a precious blessing, a life and a future, but it was being taken, believing that he or she wasn't for me in the first place. It got me traumatized especially when I had heard the possible consequences of that indicent.

That night in the bar was a betrayal though I had considered it a night that shouldn't be forgotten. Napag-isip-isip ko na baka hindi talaga para iyon sa akin dahil nagtaksil lamang ako.

Misteryosong magbigay ng sakit ang tadhana at isang mali mo lang, kabagsakan mo na.

If you'll pick the forbidden, you will be cursed. That mindset is circulating in me until now. Pero hanggang ngayon ay naniniwala akong may tamang panahon para sa umusbong na pag-ibig noon.

May tamang panahon para sa lahat. I changed my heart now, hoping that I can create a new life, forgetting all the trauma and freely accepting the pain. May natutunan ako noon at iyon na ang mahalaga.

On the other hand, my cousin from my mother side had influenced me to take modeling as she believed that I am capable. Siya ang naging gabay ko para makalimutan ang sakit na dala-dala noon. A pageant organizer discovered us and had encouraged to try the pageantry. Sinubukan ko ng walang dalawang isip. I underwent long months of trainings, body fitness and socializing.

The lessons from pain brought me to that international stage. I wanted to influence women that it is not too late to inspire others. Habang nabubuhay ka ay pwede mong ibahagi ang sarili mo sa iba. Hindi hadlang ang nakaraan para maging dyosa ka ng kalawakan.

Nilapitan ako ng ilang staff para bigyan ng tuwalya at tubig pagkatapos ng shoot. Maaliwalas ang panahon at kumikinang ang asul na dagat. Tourists are everywhere but the management had preserved the rock formations area of the beach.

Umupo ako sa bakanteng upuan katabi ni Elle na abala pa sa cellphone. Parati siyang busy sa pag-aayos ng schedule ko lalo pa ngayon ay pinapa-free ko bukas ang oras ko para makapagpahinga.

"Wala bang nag-text, Elle o tumawag?" I asked that unusual question. Ni hindi pa ako nagtanong sa kanya kung may concerned citizen bang nagtanong sa kalagayan ko.

"Wala naman," pa-angat niyang tingin sa akin, kunot ang noo. "May hinihintay kang tawag? Kay Mama mo? Kay Abiel?"

Ibinalik ko na ang numero ko sa aking cellphone. Pinapaalagaan ko kay Darius ito dahil hindi ko afford mawala ang mga contacts na naka-save doon. Ang kaibigan ko ang huling nakausap bago lumipad papuntang España.