Miss Catherine (GirlxGirl) (TeacherxStudent)

Chapter 26

(Trigger warning: Mention of depression nearly at the end. If you are not comfortable reading it, just skip this chapter)

Labag man sa ka looban ko, kailangan kong pumasok. Hindi ko hahayaan na dahil lang sa sakit ng nararamdaman ko ay pababayaan ko ang pag-aaral ko. Kailangan kong unahin 'yun sarili ko, 'yung magiging future ko kung meron man ako.

I really looked like shit right now, you can tell that I cried myself to sleep last night because of my eyes that are so puffy.

Bumaba ako para mag almusal pagkatapos kong maligo at mag bihis.

Medyo malamig na rin ang klima ngayon dahil mahigit isang buwan na lang ay mag papasko na. Minsan talaga naiisip kong 'wag na lang maligo at diretso bihis na lang dahil sa sobrang lamig ng tubig.

Kaso, 'wag. Babaho tayo hehe.

I saw my Papa cooking in the stove with some pancakes and scrambled eggs. I am really not used to this because whenever I am waking up each morning, coffee and toasted bread will do for my breakfast.

Naramdaman n'yang gising na ako kaya lumingon s'ya sa pinanggalingan ng tunog ng upuang hinila ko upang maupo. 'Di ko talaga maitatanggi na magandang lalaki si Papa, kaya nagtataka pa rin ako kung bakit hindi pa s'ya nag aasawa ulit.

Ngumiti s'ya sa akin nang makita n'ya ako pero nawala iyon agad. I know. I looked so fucked up. Like I was not fed for the last months or I haven't gotten any decent sleep.

Pakiramdam ko nga buong taon akong puyat.

"What happened?" He studied my face with confusion.

Fuck. I really do not want to cry in front of him, I cannot show any vulnerability around him.

At kung malaman n'ya kung anong nangyari sa'ming dalawa ni Catherine, siguradong hindi n'ya na gugustuhing makita pa iyon.

"Is that how you say good morning now, papa?" I chuckled fakely and looked down at my empty plate.

"Wag mo akong pilosopohin, Justine Alexis Gonzales." I looked up at him, he is suddenly in front of me.

Nakita ko 'yung mga pagkain na nilapag n'ya sa lamesa tsaka ako napa ngiti.

Gutom na gutom na ako, kagabi pa ako hindi kumakain dahil wala akong ibang ginawa kundi umiyak na lang ng umiyak sa kwarto.

Siniguro kong hindi ako maririnig ni Papa. Bwiset naman kasi, bakit kung kailan pa nandito s'ya tsaka ito nangyari.

"Justine." He said sternly.

"I'm hungry, papa. Let me eat first because I am going to be late." I deadpanned.

"You aren't going to eat unless you are going to say to me why your eyes are like that." His voice is getting a little louder now and I kid you not, he is intimidating as hell when he is angry.

"Kinagat ng ipis kagabi. Ang dami kayang ipis sa kwarto ko kasi nga hindi ko na lilinisan." I lied and looked at him in the eyes.

I am really good at lying to be honest here, I can perfectly lie in front of you without showing any emotions beside sincerity.

I set aside my emotions right now as much as I want to say to him everything that happened yesterday, there was no way that I could.

I know that he is just concern which I appreciate.

My heart is throbbing so much right now. Ang gusto ko lang ma alala ni papa kay Catherine ay yung magaganda. Ayokong masira yung imahe nya kay papa.

I really want them to get along because I love them so much.

I sighed and refused to let all the tears in my eyes to escape right now. It hurts.. Until now.