5 months passed from the time of Lia's pregnancy test, Harry and Lia are in schedule with a pregnancy clinic to keep her health on track. "Pregnancy hormones can make you feel a mix of emotional highs and lows, which can make many women feel more vulnerable or anxious. Some may also have trouble coping with their symptoms or even have complications during their pregnancy, which can cause extra stress." The doctor told harry and Lia earlier that day. They are both home and Lia's stomach is big as a balloon.
*Lia's POV*
I felt sick all day, every day during my pregnancy, which didn't really get better until I was about 6 months along. I'm not insecure. I give all the credit to my mother, she's always made me feel like I could do anything and that I was perfect the way I was. I didn't feel good physically and was also really upset that I wasn't enjoying my pregnancy. This made me really stressed and irritable, which affected my relationship with Harry. I still struggled with seeing my clothes get too tight, watching my body change, and feeling all of the physical effects of pregnancy. Tears, frustration, insecurities, low confidence, and doubt. I don't like them. I've watched my body transform in a matter of 5 months and it has been drastic.
Harry left cause he has an interview to day, I opened the TV to watch him, as usual. Talk about the album and music. The anchor asked him about me and pregnancy, "It has caused me tears to see her in pain, frustration, insecurities, low confidence, and doubt that she faces. but beyond all this I still see how beautiful and powerful God created the woman. Women deserve more respect and appreciation." Harry said and I smiled while watching him. Those women who are all "I've never felt more beautiful than I did when I was pregnant."? Yeah.. I'm not one of them. Pregnancy can definitely be a challenging time for me when it comes to body insecurities. I felt unattractive, and so uncomfortable in my own skin. I didn't take maternity photos and have hardly any photos of myself these past months. I didn't have a perfect round belly or adorable maternity style like other moms seemed to have. Gaining weight and watching my body change and grow is not something that's easy for me, and pregnancy brings up a whole new level of insecurities.
When I first , the first thing I literally did was buy belly bump stretch mark cream on Amazon. The initial excitement immediately wore off, because I started thinking about stretch marks. I was so worried that I was going to get stretch marks on my tummy, that I actually felt a little sad. I just found out I was going to have a baby with the love of my life and I was sad. because of the possibility of getting stretch marks. As my belly expands slowly, I've started to feel less and less stressed and worried about stretch marks. what I've realized is that what's happening to my body is far more important than something on the surface. When all these negative thoughts take over my mind, "beauty fades, but your mind lasts longer." Harry's sentence keeps popping up ad brightening up my day.
After like 3 hours of me just eating cashews and overthinking, I heard the house door open and harry came in. He had a box of chocolates and a big bouquet of flowers. "I ordered food." He said as he kissed me. We sat and ate and he kissed my belly. He looked at me and said, "Lets start planning our wedding before you give birth." My smile turned upside down into a frown. "I don't want to get married now, like this with this big belly!" I said as I looked at my belly in the mirror. "Why? You are beautiful." Harry said as he placed his hand on my belly. "DO AS I SAY!" I shouted.
