Is This love? | J.JK

Night

I follow Jungkook to the dinner table and once again sit down next to him. As we're eating I keep replaying in my head what happened in the bathroom. What would have happened in Jimin hadn't interrupted? Was he really about to kiss me?

"Y/N are you even paying attention?" I hear Joohyun question.

"Huh? What?" I asked her, not having heard anything they were saying.

" well I guess that's our answer" Seulgi said, laughing.

I turn my head to see Jungkook laughing at how out of it I am. This jerk thinks it's funny how much of an effect he had on me.

"I wouldn't be laughing if I were you, this is your fault!!" I throw a glare his way.

"So you admit I'm the reason you're not paying attention to anything? Hmm... What are you thinking about Squirtle?"

" ugh nevermind" I go back to eating. The other members look at us but don't say anything

We clean up our mess from dinner and decide to watch a movie.

"NO SCARY MOVIES" I remind the girls and alert the boys of my rule. I can't do scary movies. I've seen one and I had nightmares for weeks. Even seeing clips will give me nightmares as well as insane paranoia. The girls hate that I can't take it because they can almost never watch any.

"Too bad" Jungkook said. Once he said that my Unnies joined forces so that we could watch one anyway.

"Whatever, fine." I didn't want to ruin their fun so I let them win. I'd suffer the consequences.

They pick the movie and I know it's one of the scarier ones. I sit on the edge of the couch, hoping to be able to throw myself over the arm, to be honest. Plus hopefully the cameras wouldn't see me crying this way. That was until Jungkook sat next to me. He smirked and I thought it was because he thought I was a baby for being scared. Well now I have to act not scared.

It starts and I'm already terrified. The dark aesthetic and suspenseful music itself is enough to make me want to close my eyes. I try not to because Jungkook is next to me but I can't help it and squeeze them tight. I feel his arm wrap around me and my body instinctively turns into it, looking up at his face to see why he did it.

"It's okay if you're scared, I'm not gonna judge you I promise. I'm here to protect you." He whispered to me and smiled slightly. I instantly felt relief rush through my body and bury my body closer to his chest, turning my head back to the movie. I really did feel protected in his embrace and I only turned away a few times for the rest of the beginning. Then the movie really started going and I was terrified. Someone popped out of nowhere with a knife. I screamed at the jump scare and hid my head, grasping onto Jungkook for dear life. The members turned their heads at my scream, only to be met with my back as Jungkook slowly rubbed circles on it.

I tried to go back to watching for a little but I couldn't handle it. Right at the climax I gave up completely, turning my body all the way around. Jungkook seemed to get it and opened up his arms, welcoming me to sit on him basically. I don't know why I felt so comfortable around him, but I did it without a second of hesitation. I climbed on his lap, latching myself around his torso and hiding my head in the crook of his neck. I could still hear the gory noises and was shaking a little bit. I felt so stupid for being this scared over a movie. But something about the way Jungkook was stroking my hair and whispering reassurances in my ear made everything seem okay.

I heard music start to play and I knew we had finished the movie, but I didn't trust something not to pop up during the credits so I didn't move until I heard silence. I move my head away from Jungkook and slide off his lap. I had only watched like half the movie and was going to be traumatized for a while.

I saw some members were heading to their rooms and a few others were trying to decide what movie to watch next. I decided to go to my room, needing some time to rest my brain after almost scaring it to death. I get up and Jungkook does too, he follows me to our room. I get in and check the time, it's around 10 and I need to shower tonight. I shower every night but I'm terrified to because I'll have a feeling that someone is watching me or convince myself that I heard a noise. I frown at the thought and start collecting my things to shower.

"Why is your face like that?"

"Wow Kook, thank you"

"You know what I mean, you look like you're dreading showering, which is weird because it's just showing."

" Well some jerks forced me to watch a scary movie so now I'm gonna be paranoid and think someone is trying to kill me while I shower. I'll probably have nightmares for a week too"

"Ohhhh" and then after a while he says "I'm sorry we made you watch it."

" Don't be, the girls don't get to watch then very often and I should take into consideration their likes as much as they do my dislikes." I state plainly, I didn't want him to feel guilty. "Plus you really helped me, I probably would have had a mental breakdown like halfway into the movie if it weren't for you." I smile seeing how happy the response makes him.

I go to the bathroom, trying to shower as quickly as possible and think happy thoughts. Suddenly they flash back to what happened before dinner, and the position that we were in during the movie. He initiated both. Does he like me?

I finish showering and change into my pajamas, deciding to go to bed a little early tonight since I'm gonna have trouble sleeping through the night. I walk out to find the others and tell them goodnight, discovering most of them are in their sleeping outfits too. After I successfully wish everyone sweet dreams, I make my way back to my room. I see that the cameras are turned off, which means it's after 11 since that's when they automatically shut off. I climb in my bed, ready for a restless night, when I hear a voice from the other bed.

"Are you still scared?"

" Right now no because I'm not thinking about it, but once I fall asleep the nightmares will hit. " I tell him honestly.

"Okay. Well um. I don't know if it'll help. But um if you want you can sleepinmybedwithme."

He says the last part so fast it takes me a second to realize what he said. Sleep in his bed? With him?

"Just so like I could wake you up if you're having one."

His sincerity blows me away. He really would let me invade his personal space and lose sleep over me?

Wordless, I make my way over to his bed trying not to trip in the dark room. When I make it I see that he has already scooted to one side of the bed and he pulls back the covers when he sees me. I lay down, at first I'm a few inches away, near the edge of the bed because I don't want to make him uncomfortable. But once he sees that I'm fully in the bed he immediately puts his arm around me and pulls me to his chest. I can feel his strong arm arms around my shoulders, my hands resting on the soft skin of his chest while his hands run through my hair. It feels comfortable and safe.

We talk a while, about all types of stuff. Why we wanted to be an idol, people we look up to, our funniest fansign stories, things we wish we could change about ourselves, really anything that comes to our minds. It feels like we've been talking for hours, even though it's probably only been like one. My eyes can barely stay open, and I close them while I lean into Jungkooks chest, one of my legs tangling with his. I feel a sleepy kiss on my forehead and with that I drift off to sleep.

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A/N- how we feeling after that surprise Mikrokosmos and Spring Day? I'm extremely emotional and have been listening to then on repeat since. And their speeches?? Ugh I can't take it, like your brain really do be that beautiful? Those amazing words just left your mouth? Like I feel so attacked? Sir, do you know that I would literally die for you? Anyways... Please feel free to comment whatever you want and if you wanna fangirl or keyboard smash about the dear 2020 video, go for it :)