Stay With Me

If Only

Back on the way to the dormitory

"I really had a great day off today, I don't want this day to be over!" Jennie stated looking outside, watching the moving cars from the window.

"Hm, me too Jendeukie. It's going to be a very busy and exhausting week for all us. But finally, we will have Solo on air and Kill This Love that our Blinks waited for so long to hear them" Jisoo said dancing the choreo of Jennie's solo to motivate her.

On the back seats, Rosé saw Lisa lost in her thoughts, so she placed her hands on youngest knees, rubbing them softly and asked her what was going on with her.

"Lisayah, what are you thinking about?"

"Nothing in particular."

Even her answer was so short. Lisa used to be the girl, who drives all of them crazy with her actions, making everyone laugh with her jokes and her embarrassing moments, but the past few days she was very quiet. Like she was struggling with something inside her.
They talked about this, with Jennie and Jisoo Unnie, but no one could think of the reasons behind her odd behaviour. They always concluded that probably is the airport incident.

Lisa indeed was struggling with something. A constant war was taking place inside her. She was fighting her own feelings. It had nothing to do with the airport's unpleasant incident, of course that annoyed her, as she always gives a hundred percent of herself on what she does but it wasn't the real problem.

The past few days Lisa found herself always thinking about Jennie. She doesn't want to admit to herself that she has fallen for her beautiful bandmate.

"Falling in love with you was the easy part; it's admitting to myself that it happened which was hard. When you smile at me I feel invisible hands wrapping around me, making me feel safe. When your eyes are locked on mine, it's like I can see galaxies instead of just stars. Having you in my life makes me feel like everything's possible in this world, like I can conquer anything." That's what Lisa was thinking when Rosé asked her and of course she couldn't talk to her sensitive friend about this.

The TOP rule when you become an idol in Korea is never to fall for you bandmates. Plus dating is out of the question. This could be the reason to ruin your carrer and everyone else's career. Lisa had sacrificed her childhood with painful practices to become what she is today. Not only she, everyone in her team did. She couldn't risk it and destroy what the girls have been building all along.

So she decided to keep it for herself and fight it with all her powers, besides there's Jennie. There was no chance in hell that she could feel the same way about her. But trying to stay away from Jennie, not hugging her, not kissing her cheeks, not being in love with her in total, was very exhausting.

Hotel

Unfortunately, Rosé was not the only who was taking pictures of the girls that night.
Being so famous, you have to always be careful what you do or say because people with cameras will always be around you recording every small moment.
They have to be very careful of the paparazzi's because they can make a headline by your smallest mistake or by any clumsy move.
This time the pictures were not taken by paparazzi's tho, but by Cha Dal-gun. He goes to his desk and connects his camera with his laptop. Pictures of girls hanging out, roaming around shops, seeing the fireworks filled the camera's memory card. Not any random girls, but Blackpink and especially Jennie.
Many photos of Lisa also were taken as she was always around Jennie, holding her hand or they would have linked arms.
He prints out many photos of them and he picks the best photos of Jennie and take them in his hands. He is softly touching Jennie's face, but when he notices Lisa on her side he gets angry.
Anger!
It is the vexing of the soul,a swelling of the veins ready to explode, it's like the blood rushes to your head.
His eyes went dark, he frowns his eyebrows and he tries to control his breath and anger. Imagining that all of this will be over soon and Jennie will be by his side for ever, very soon an evil smile was spreading on his lips.