Save me

First time for everything

I can't believe I'm kissing Alpha, we keep it gentle and passionate, I like that he's being gentle, I slowly climb over and onto his lap, his hands move around me, he's going nice and slow, so I don't like rushing into things, he moves to my neck, I breath out shuddering, his lips are so warm, 'uuuu' I moan softly, he embraces me to lay on the couch, 'Alpha' I moan, 'call me Anthony' he says, 'mmmm, I like it' I say, his tongue swipes over my skin, holy shit, now I'm embarrassed, I finished, I turn my head away, 'don't be embarrassed' he says, and turns my head to look at him, he kisses me 'I'm not use to being touched ... gently' 'oh, I'm not gentle, I was barely grazing you' he says, 'what do you mean?' 'I don't fuck like others, I do it ... hard' he says, 'but I won't do that til you say you are ready, okay?', he can tell I'm intrigued, he kisses me, 'okay?' he says, I nod, I kiss him, I sit up and lay him back, 'Roxanne?' 'what?' I say, 'we're not rushing into anything' he says, 'so you don't want me to suck your dick?' I say, and sit up, 'you are not ready' he says, 'okay?' I say and get off of his lap, he does have a boner, and he normally has random girls to finish him off, 'Roxanne?, ... are you good at hand jobs?' he asks 'no?, ...' I say, I don't know if I'm good, I've never given one.

The kids wake up, I get up, 'guess you'll never find out?' I say, getting up, 'never?' he says giving me a different look, 'I've never given a hand job' I say, then go upstairs, he is definitely going to fix that, 'and your Johnson isn't that big' I comment teasing him going upstairs, he smirks, he's going to make me literally eat those words, when his dick is in my mouth, I go upstairs he gets up, he goes upstairs, he leans on the doorway, 'you know I have a right to touch you, whenever I want how I want' he says, 'mmm-hmm, if that's how you want to see it' I say, .... he goes to say something, 'but you better have not said all that stuff just to get laid' I say, he can see how I'd say that, 'I wouldn't do that' he says, 'I hardly know you, ... Anthony' I say, he smiles a little, I hold Jason, Skye and Krystal wake up, 'look I know, I will never replace Max-' 'she told you his name?' I ask, (Anthony killed Max right in front of me, he came out of the woods, beaten up really bad, he was protected his children and me, when Anthony literally ripped his jaw from his skull, 'I know it's a soft spot' 'a soft spot?, ... you killed their father in front of me' .... 'your not going to kiss me again ... are you?' Anthony says, ..... 'I didn't know you called your father "Alpha"?' 'it's fine, really?' 'he started the fight not us, we just wanted our mates, he wouldn't let you all go, so he paid the price, you think your the only one who lost someone?, we lost 3 wolves that day-' 'we lost everyone!!' I raise my voice, Anthony waits a moment, I walk past him, 'you know I want to past that, if you just let me, ... get close to you' 'and erase their memory like that?, you didn't even let me bury them' I say, he growls a little, 'Roxanne' he says, 'I have to look after my fatherless children' I say, 'don't you dare fucking speak to me like that, I have been going easy on you, I could have you anytime I wanted, I could have killed your children, I could have ripped that filthy fucking ring off of your finger!, I could have marked you!, so don't you dare fucking act like I have done nothing to get close to you!' he raises his voice, the girls start crying, 'you could have let me go' 'you are my mate, I couldn't do that' he says, I go into the girls nursery, he knows I hate him, he hates it, he wants to go back to almost 5 minutes ago, when he got the closet to me he ever has, he should have taken me up on my offer for a blowjob.

He follows me to the girls nursery, 'think about it, before I suddenly start taking away what I granted you' he says, then goes downstairs, there is no way I'd ever make it past the front gate, then I just figure, just be his bitch to let my children live?.

Later that night, I come into his room and sit on his bed, 'what?' he asks, pretending to be asleep, ... 'I want to fuck', he listened to my heartbeat, I don't want to, he knows I'm forcing it, 'no' he says, he straight away knows why I asked, to protect my children, but he won't have me if I don't want him, I pull his blanket down, 'Roxanne' he warns, 'so, all the sudden you don't want me?' I say, 'I do, ... but you don't want me' he says, he hates that I'm offering something he craves but it's not something I want, he hates it, he despises it, I feel around his boxers, he knows I'm hating myself for this, he grabs my wrist, 'Roxanne' 'earlier you were complaining about wanting this?' 'I want all of you' 'so your not going to hurt my children?', he growls, 'how about I break their necks?, then maybe you will stop doing things for them?' he says, I couldn't stop my hand from slapping him!, he grabs my wrist, stopping me, 'get out' he says, and pushes my body away, I fall off of the bed!, 'I'm serious, get the fuck out' he growls, I get up and walk out, I close the door, asshole.

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Roxanne was willing to sleep with someone who killed her father and fiancé, just to save her children, now that is a willing mother who will do anything to protect her kids.