HER PSYCHOTIC HUSBAND

Chapter 40 - Absence deeply felt

"If you're struggling, know that Allah hasn't left you.
Sometimes we misinterpret pain for abandonment, but this pain that you feel is a reminder that He's still with you, showing you what you couldn't see and teaching you what you need to learn. He's still here, especially amidst the pain.
-Princess.OfGardens🖋
#pinterest
_______________

Rikza's POV :

My head felt heavy because of all the crying and stress. Words counted less to describe my sorrow. Only I knew how I handled the situation despite having feelings for him. I suffered the pain of losing someone whom you love dearly because of a promise you made in the past.

I wanted to become selfish when the time came, but on the other hand, my mother's thought stopped me from doing so. Her life was at stake and I can't risk her life at any cost. I don't want to have any kind of regret in future and so I had to control my heart which begged me to not tear myself away from him.

I can't stay there in his room for more than a minute after I was said to go. I could not even bid a proper good bye to his family because I didn't wanted to end up shattering myself in front of them.

I straight away ran to the gate crying all along when I heard Daadu's voice which made me stop on my tracks. I took a hold of my tears looking at him to speak up when I already knew what he might say. Unfortunately, he didn't said a word about what I had expected.

He didn't stopped me neither did he asked me the reason for why I asked seperation but rather he adviced me to think about my decision once again.

"Beta, I won't stop you from going neither will I ask you the reason for such a big decision, but I would suggest you to think about it once again. He really loves you and I can promise you that He will keep you happy. I am not supporting him in anyway, but I can assure you that he is not bad by heart. If he had said you something which indeed was wrong, I am sure he might have said it out of temper and it might be unintentional ofcourse".

I listened to him trying my best to keep my posture calm but I failed as the tears fled out of my eyes vulnerably.

"If you're hurt, I would request you to give him one last chance to make it up to you. I promise that, if he fails to mark up to your expectations and you were still unhappy with him, I won't stop you. But please give him a chance to prove himself, for only one last time?Can you do that for me, please?" He pleaded which placed me in an extremely awkard position.

One part of my heart asked me to go back in a reverse motion and head towards the room and actually give him a chance. Therefore, I had to accept his plea but later, the major part of my mind warned me to not fall for it.

I could not disrespect him, so I thought to tackle him anyhow and later ponder over to whatever he said. I just nod my head assuring him while paying a last glance at his room before crawling to the gate.

I don't why but something decreased my pace from high to low. Hence, I ambled taking baby steps towards the exit area while pondering on how to tackle my aunt and Mumma ofcourse.

I feared her reaction to be intense and therefore, it somehow scared me about the worst consequences of my decision. I wish my momma's health to be stable after knowing the truth and I really hope she understands my situation.

I exhaled a deep breath trying to prepare myself for the outcomes of my decision. I whispered Bismillah as I knocked on the door. Meanwhile, my heart beat fastened as if it was running a marathon, chasing for the deadline.

To my surprise, uncle opened the door to whom I greeted while entering the house. I learned that he was on leave today. I ambled to the kitchen searching for Mumma where I had to face her absence. Instead, muffin was helping aunt for the lunch.