San Vicente Series #1, Moon Embraces The Sun

Eighteen

Bumaba ako para uminom ng tubig, sumasakit na ang ulo ko sa kakaisip kay ilios, hindi na rin ako nag eexpect na magpapakita pa sya ulit, sinanay ko na ang sarili ko na wala sya kahit masakit.

Kami, pero parang hindi na kami. Gusto kong puntahan sya at mag makaawa na kausapin nya na ako, pero mas humihigit ang iniisip ko na kapag gusto nya akong kausapin, gagawa at gagawa sya ng paraan.

I shouldn't be afraid of losing people, i should be afraid of losing myself by trying to please everyone.

Kumuha ako ng baso at nilagyan iyon ng tubig, the moment i returned it in the ref, i heard an engine stopped outside.

I went to the window to check on it, i saw ilios' car outside. What is he doing here in the middle of the night?

Pinagmasdan ko muna sya at hindi muna pinagbuksan ng pintuan, nanatili sya sa loob ng sasakyan nya, now what? Pupunta sya dito pero hindi lalabas?

Narinig ko ang kulog mula sa langit, nagbabadya ata na umulan, nanatili parin si ilios sa loob ng sasakyan nya at hindi umalis.

Sinisilip silip ko lamang sya galing sa loob, minsan ay palakad lakad ako, at minsan naman ay umuupo ako sa sofa.

Narinig ko ang malakas na pagkasara ng sasakyan nya, dali dali ko syang pinagbuksan ng pintuan at nagtungo sa gate.

"What are you doing here? In the middle of the night? Seriously?"

Tumawa sya at itinaas ang mga kamay nya para yumakap ako sa kanya, now what? Does he expect me to go and hug him?

"Are you drunk?"

"No I'm not drunk! Come on, I missed you!" Hagikgik nya.

"Ano na ba ang nangyayari sayo? Bat ka naglalasing?"

"Hindi nga ako lasing!" Pagtataas nya ng boses.

"Don't you dare raise your voice on me" i said calmly.

Honestly, i want to bring him inside and take care of him, but seeing and talking to him like this? It makes me wanna punch him hard.

"Zanne, won't you come and hug me? Didn't you miss me?"

Nangingilid na ang mga luha ko, hindi ko na kilala si ilios, hindi ko na alam kung anong nangyayari sa kanya, hindi sya nagpaparamdam at ngayon bigla bigla syang susulpot? He's literally giving me a hard time.

"Ilios, go home" i said.

I know it's not good to let him drive while he's drunk, i don't know what to do with him.

Ilios' aura became serious and dark, he stared at me intently, i did the same.

He then stepped forward and grabbed me in my arms, i bumped hard on his chest, gosh i missed him so much, his scent, his presence, everything.

The smell of alcohol collided with his perfume, im starting to get dizzy of his scent right now.

Kumalas ako sa yakap nya at naglakad paatras, i saw how his face turned sad, nagsimulang bumuhos ang nga luha ko.

Why did this happen to us? It's like there's a barrier between us, hindi tulad ng dati, ngayon parang hindi na kami nagkakaintindihan. The connection was lost.

"Go home Ilios, I'll call yiannis to fetch you" i said at tinalikuran sya. He was just sitting on the road like a kid, gustong gusto ko syang lapitan pero pinipigilan ko ang sarili ko, hindi ko syang magawang lapitan dahil masasaktan at masasaktan lamang ako.

Ilang sandali ay dumating na si yiannis, lumapit ako sa kanya. Bumaba na sya sa sasakyan nya at lumapit sakin.

Tumango sya at hinarap ako.