San Vicente Series #1, Moon Embraces The Sun

Nineteen

I can feel my eyes hurting, hindi dahil sa anu-ano kundi dahil sa kakaiyak, ramdam ko ang pamumugto ng mga mata ko, Dad had managed to punch ilios, but what hurts me the most is when ilios kept on staring at me kahit binubugbog na sya.

I couldn't even understand what his stare means, i dont think he seems asking for help, or he's just sorry or he's ashamed of himself.

If i put myself into his shoes, i should be ashamed of myself, and if he's not it only means one thing, he's a user.

Dad and mom left, I dont know where but they left, im pretty sure they're sorting this out already.

Nakaluhod ako sa floor at nakatunganga, nakasandal naman si ilios sa pader habang nakatingin sakin.

"Zanne!"

I saw ashia running in pace towards me, and then my i burst out into tears. Niyakap ako ni ashia hindi ko na magang yakapin sya pabalik, i felt numb. If i could just escape from this mess i would have already, but we all know how cutthroat the world is.

I couldn't deal about anything right now, ang tanging nasa isip ko lang ay si Ilios, how could he do this to me? Sa loob ba nga 12 years hindi nya ako minahal? Pero sa mga pinapakita nya ay mahal nya ako, I don't want to believe the thoughts running in my mind, i wanted to believe what he truly did to me back then, he proved to me that he's not playing around. And for 12 years! For fucking 12 years!! Did he really love me?

"Zanna, tara na pumasok na tayo" naiiyak na sambit ni ashia.

No ashia, i just want to stay here, i want to stay with ilios.

"Hindi ko alam kung anong pwedeng sabihin sayo, sana naman ay mahiya ka sa ginawa mo" sabi ni ashia kay ilios.

I saw tears flowing from his eyes, pls don't cry, pls my love, don't.

"Z-zanne". Sabay sabay kaming nilingon si ilios na ngayon ay ginagawa ang lahat para maibsan ang sakit na binigay sa kanya ni daddy.

"Ilios, enough. Cut it out okay? You planned all of this, we know you're not sorry" ani sun.

I heard ashia sobbing beside me, and sun is just being sun, she didn't cry. I never saw her cry for years already.

"I...i-i am so sorry" ani ilios.

Lumapit ako at niyakap siya, naramdaman ko ang yakap nya sakin, pilit naman akong hinihila ni sun at ashia palayo sa kanya.

I know they want me to be mad with ilios, hindi ko alam kung bakit tila nalulusaw ang aking puso, para akong sinasaksak ng paulit ulit sa nakikita ko, all i want to do right now is to hug him, he must have his reasons right? I should just ask him once again.

"I-ilios, pls tell me.... Y-you're not the one who did this... R-right?" I asked him in sobbing.

Bigla akong nanghina nung yumuko si ilios, kung sa gayon ay nahila na ako ni sun at ashia.

"Zanne! Ano pa ba ang hindi mo naiintindihan? Dinamay nya ang kapatid mo na inosente!" Pangaral ni sun.

She doesn't understand at all.

"Nagmahal ka na ba?" I asked and stared at her, i can feel my eyes were swollen already, ashia held sun's hand to calm her down.

Alam kong nagaalala sila sakin, mahal ko lang naman si ilios, iintindihin ko sya hanggat kaya ko, at alam kong kakayanin ko ito dahil mas matimbang ang pagmamahalan namin.

"Z-zanne? Stop these bullshits, you're unreasonable, you're being childish!" Mariin na sabi ni sun

"Nag mahal ka na ba?" Pagtataas ko ng boses sa kanya.