𝕌𝕟𝕡𝕣𝕠𝕗𝕖𝕤𝕤𝕚𝕠𝕟𝕒𝕝 ❣︎ Aizawa X Student Reader (DISCONTINUED)

❀Ch.11❀

(Trigger warninggggg! There will be mentions of suicide and an attempt so please read at your own risk.)

(Y/n)'s POV

I pushed the roof doors open in a rush and ran to the edge of the roof, crying my eyes out.

The sun set peacefully over in the horizon leaving pink and orange clouds behind. A beautiful scenery to calm me down.....

I heaved for air and set my bag down behind me And sat on the ledge, dangling my legs over the edge. My life is over...Aizawa was the only person really making me happy. Now he hates me and I have no one.

I looked down at the ground that was so far away yet so close...maybe if I just jumped, my suffering can end? Yeah...that would be nice. I wouldn't have to worry anymore. And everyone I know wouldn't have to worry about me.

I'm just a burden anyway and no one will miss me. If I jump everything will be over and I can rest. The world would be so much better without me.

I stood up on the ledge and gazed off onto the city with the pretty lights and the pinkish sky. I wiped my salty tears away and chuckled quietly to my self.
How ironic. When I was little, I used my quirk and I was sent up into the air so high...that I was free falling for so long...but Yoshiko saved me from splatting on the ground. Now No one is here to save me. This made me chuckle more.

Yoshiko....I'm sorry...I was a burden to you. But now you can relax without me. I'm sorry I couldn't be a better younger sister to you....

I felt more tears escape my eyes. Nothing felt real in this moment...it was like a dream. But this dream will end. I felt numb...that's how I like it.

Goodbye world. It's been fun. But I wasn't meant to be here. I messed up and I need to pay. Sorry to the ones I've hurt and I'm sorry for not being good enough....

I drew in my last long breath and looked up at the pretty pink sky. Bye bye...I thought and spread my arms out like a bird and slowly leaned off the edge with my eyes closed.

I heard the doors to the roof burst open but I couldn't see who it was because I was already falling....
𝔻𝕠𝕨𝕟...
𝔻𝕠𝕨𝕟...
𝔻𝕠𝕨𝕟.

I free fell...but I stopped? What? Wait.....I was dangling half way down. I looked at what had me. A hard grey scarf....Aizawa's capture weapon. No no no! Why?!

I squeezed my eyes shut and allowed Myself to be pulled up. I had no more strength to fight.

I felt myself on a solid surface and two hands grasp my shoulders. "(Y/N)! Why did you just jump?! Why did you try to end your life?!" Aizawa shook me while yelling at me.

I flinched but refused to open my eyes. "Look at me (y/n)! WHY?! Why...."He sucked in a breath.

I began to break down and cry. "Because I'm a burden and I'm nothing! You don't like me and I ruined our relationship! I'm suffering in silence and all I do is pretend like I'm fine! Well I'm not fine! It hurts and I can't take it anymore!!" I yelled it all out.

I sobbed loudly and shook uncontrollably with the heaves of my cries. Aizawa unwrapped me and suddenly I was pulled into a tight hug. I hugged back just as tight and cried into Aizawa's shoulder. He made soothing motions on my back to try and calm me down.

"I'm sorry." I choked out. "Shhh, just please don't ever do that again....please....I need you here. You have such a bright future ahead of you." Aizawa whispered.

We stayed like that for awhile until I pulled away and looked at him with teary eyes. "I had no idea you were suffering. Why didn't you tell me?" Aizawa asked. I sighed. "Because I felt if I told anyone they'd have to worry about me. And I don't want them to. I don't want to be more of a burden than I am. Already" I confessed.

"(Y/n)...your not a burden at all. But how are you suffering exactly?" "I just...ever since I was kidnapped I'm afraid to go to sleep or even close my eyes. Because when I do I feel like I'm going to get hurt and it's just really scary to me....that's why I haven't been getting any sleep. I sleep in class because I feel safe." I looked at the sunset.

"You have PTSD. Sometimes it goes away over time but most of the time people would have to consult in a therapist." Aizawa informed me. But I don't want to go to a therapist...

"Do I have to go to a therapist? I mean...maybe I can find an alternative to get over it?" "You don't have to. I'm sure you can find an alternative. I can help you." He put a hand on my shoulder comfortingly.

I smiled. "Thank you...." Aizawa pulled me into another hug. "Of course...I'm sorry I made you cry. You're not just my student...Your an important person to me. When you told me you liked me I couldn't believe it. I got...scared. Because I like you too in the unprofessional way. I didn't mean to be so harsh."

I pulled away from Aizawa and looked at him, surprised. "Y-you like me back?!" "Ugh, this sounds so first grade, but yes. I like you back." Aizawa confessed.

I felt my insides do flips and I literally couldn't believe what I was hearing. "So is that why you never said anything when ever I showed my affection to you?" I asked.

"Yeah. I secretly enjoyed it. But there's still a lingering feeling that it's wrong. I really shouldn't like you. You're my student and it's really unprofessional....not to mention creepy because I'm way older than you." Aizawa sighed.

I grabbed his hands and held them. "It's not creepy to me. Okay, maybe to other people. But not to me.  Thing is, I like when things are forbidden. Like an unprofessional relationship between us. I'm sure we could keep it secret! Some other teachers and students get together and stuff. And they're really secretive about it."

"I don't know...I would really like to but my job is at risk. What happens if someone finds out? My career is ruined. And I could go to jail." He squeezed my hands gently. "Look, we don't have to be obvious. And we can show affection when no ones looking. Seriously. It's pretty easy." I smiled, hopefully convincing Aizawa.

He let out a long heavy sigh and looked away. "This is the most irrational thing I'm going to do. But, okay. We can be together but under no circumstances will we show affection in the classroom. To avoid any suspicion."

I let go of his hands and wrapped my arms around his neck and snuggled my head into his chest. "Thank you, shouta." He wrapped his strong arms around me and rested his head on mine.

"I guess we're going to have to go on a date now, huh?" He asked. "Yup, what should we do?" I asked back. "How about you fight me tomorrow morning, if you beat me I'll pay for the date and if I beat you, you have to pay."Aizawa proposed.

Hmmm that actually sounds like an interesting idea. "Alright. That sounds fair. But can we just stay here for a bit longer?"I asked. Aizawa nodded and we ended up sitting on the ledge of the building watching the sun finally go down.

After that he walked me to the gates and then he offered me a ride home. Of course I accepted and got in his car. Turns out he was going home now too. I texted my mom that I was getting a ride.

Aizawa drove me to my house and turned to me. "What's your phone number?" He asked me. I looked at him surprised. "O-oh, it's (Insert random phone number here)." He nodded and put it into his phone. "I'll text you tomorrow."

I hugged him. "Okay, Thank you...for saving me from myself. Goodnight, Aizawa." "You don't have to thank me. But please don't do that again."

I nodded. "I won't, I promise." I kissed his cheek. "Goodnight, (y/n)" he said before I got out of his car and went inside my house for the night.

I stayed up until 9:35 until I somehow finally crashed out due to sleep deprivation.

(A/N
WOW what an interesting chapter eh? Sorry for the mega angst but it was coming. Now you're gonna have to battle sensei for who's gonna pay! Let's find out who wins. (•̀ᴗ•́)و )