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i died

i died

i died the first day i was born
when Neptune's ring became one
and my eyes where brighter than the sun .

yes ,i died

i died the day i knew darkness
the day i found peace
when i was standing under the rain
breaking down to pieces .

Oh ,i died

i didn't think anyone would notice
because they never did when I'd float like a lotus
and my heartbeat bogus
my ribs shattered as the chamber broke 
my heart scattered in just one stroke .

why wouldn't i die ?
this is so much better
than hiding my cuts in my sweaters,
hiding in the dark ,my palms on my lip
as i try not to weep

that's when i died

in my head
in the darkness
inside water
a liquid fortress

and i ,
the Queen lotus
i liked the way it'd hug me
i let it hug me tight
because all i had was the water
like my own guardian Knight

i died everyday
little by little
until i just — faded away

and im not sorry im not here

so adieu ,my dear .