Loving Rago Ken Marquez

Chapter 20

Gabi na nang napag-desisyonan kong umuwi sa bahay. Nasa labas pa lang ako ay nakikita ko na ang kotse ni Erva na nakaparada sa labas ng bahay. When the gate opened, I immediately parked my car on the parking lot of the house. Dare-daretso lang akong pumasok ng bahay papunta sa kusina.

Tumayo ako sa tapat ng bar counter at akmang aabutin ko na sana ang isang bote ng vodka nang may tumapik sa kamay ko.

"No liquors." sabi niya.

Kinagat ko ang pang-ibabang labi, "Let me have one, please? Ang sakit. Sobrang sakit." nanghihinang napaupo ako sa sahig habang umiiyak.

"Goddamn it! What happened?!" Kuya panicked.

Malakas akong umiiyak sa mga bisig kuya. "H-he.. u-used me.. k-kuya.. ayoko n-na.."

"Used you?! Fuck him!" galit na galit na sigaw ni kuya. His eyes are deadly like he wanted to kill somebody.

Nakarinig ako ng mga yapak papunta sa direksyon namin ni kuya.

"What happened?!"

"Sariya! Oh my god!"

I heard mom's voice followed by Erva's.

"P-please.. k-kuya ease.. the p-pain.." mahigpit kong hinawakan ang kamay ni kuya. Umawang ang bibig ko dahil sa paninikip ng aking dibdib. "K-kuya.. m-my.. baby.."

I heard them shouting my name before I lost my consciousness.

"–CAN'T promise you the baby's safety. It's too weak and she's so stressed out. If this continues, you will lose the bab–"

"N-no.. p-please n-not my b-baby." nahihirapan kong sabi.

They immediately turn their head to me. The doctor examine me for a minute before continuing what she's saying earlier.

"As what I'm saying, you will lose the baby if you continue being like this. I told you no liquors and no stress. Please, if you want your baby, take care of it." she left the room.

"Hey. Are you ok now?" Kuya asked and sat beside me on my bed.

Hindi ako umimik o gumalaw. I'm too guilty for not thinking of what will happen to my baby because of my recklessness.

"Speak up, Sariya. You're scaring us!" narinig kong sigaw ni Carli.

"I-I'm ok." mahina kong bulong.

"What do you want? Food? Anything you want, kuya will buy it." hinawakan ni kuya ang pinsngi ko para mapaharap ako sa kanila.

Tinignan ko lang siya sa mata, "K-kuya?"

He smiled and hummed.

"Hindi kana mad sa akin, right?" I asked.

His smile remained on his face, "I'm not and I will never be. Now, now, what does my sister want?"

"Chicken liver adobo, kuya." nanunubig ang bagang kong sabi.

He chuckled before messing my hair and leave my room. Muling tumahimik ang kwarto ko. Kaming tatlong magkakaibigan na lang ang natitira pero walang nagsasalita. Nag angat ako ng tingin sa kanila at doon na nakita ang luha sa mga pisngi nila.

"H-hey."

"Sariyaaaaa. Diyos ko! Sobrang alalang-alala kami sayo kanina. Nagsisisigaw kami kasi bigla kang nawalan ng malay. Tapos.. tapos.. kung hindi ka yakap ng kuya mo kanina malamang nabagok na ulo mo!" Erva cried.

Carli hold my hand, "Ok kana ba? Bakit ba kasi hindi mo sinabi sa amin? Edi sana nakasama mo kami." she wiped her tears but it continues to flows down on her cheeks.

"Ninang kami ha?"

Mahina akong natawa at pinunasan ang pisngi ni Erva. "Oo naman. Sayang naman kung hindi kayo magiging ninang ng anak ko e ang yayaman niyo." I joked.

They both glared at me.

"Bakit hindi mo sinabi? Pumunta kami dito para bisitahin ka pero wala ka naman daw sabi ng parents mo kaya hinintay ka namin tapos nang dumating ka naman, umiiyak ka habang yakap ng kuya mo."

"Magkwento kana lang kaya." Carli suggested. They both sat in front of me on my bed.

Agad na nanubig ang mga mata ko nang maalala ang nangyare kanina. "Rago.. h-he.. used me." panimula ko. "Kanina, when I was just got out from the Ob-Gyn clinic nakabunggo ko si Rio tapos he saw the ultrasound pictures. He was so mad, shouting that I will ruin his brother's life." tumulo ang luha ko. "Tapos bigla na lang niyang sinabi na ika.. i-ikakasal na yung.. k-kuya niya. Hindi ako n-naniwala kasi baka si-sinabi niya lang 'yon para siraan yung kuya niya." I started sobbing.

"Then noong.. nagdoorbell ako ng penthouse ni Rago.. b-bumungad sa akin y-yung babae. S-sabi niya fiance siya ni R-Rago.. I s-saw her r-ring. W-when I was about to g-go out.. s-she started t-to tell me t-that it was all a p-plan and s-slap me. She even c-called me a s-slut.. and Rago just u-used me."

They gasped.

"The nerve of that woman! Give me Rago's address! Kakatayin ko ang babaeng iyon!" Erva madly punched my bed. "Carli dalhin mo ang katana mo!"

Tumango si Carli, "I will. I'm gonna kill that Rago if he really used you."

Silence took over the room again.

"What your plan now? Hindi mo naman sinabi kay Rago kaya hindi niya alam. Rio's the only problem but he won't talk because he doesn't want to ruin his brother's life."

Huminga ako ng malalim at tumungo, "I don't know."

They both held my hand. The door suddenly opened and both of my parents came in.

"Are you ok now?" Mom asked.

Tumango ako, "You're not mad anymore, mommy?"

She smiled and caressed my cheeks. "Hindi naman ako nagalit, nagtampo lang." she pinched my cheeks a little. "Ready yourself and your things."

Kunot noong tumingin ako kina Erva bago ulit kina mommy, "Why? Are we going somewhere?"

Dad tapped my head, "You're flying out of the country, love."

"Po? Saan po siya pupunta?" gulat na nakatayo sila Erva.

Dad motioned his hand, "Girls, girls, wait. Sariya needs to rest, you heard the doctor right?" my friends nodded. "If she stays here, she'll be devastated. You can visit her there naman." bumaling sa akin si daddy. "We already talked to your Auntie Lez. Doon ka sa kanila mags-stay. Tutulungan ka rin ng mga pinsan mo doon."

Mahina akong tumango. Nagpaalam sila sa amin dahil aasikasuhin daw nila ang mga papeles nagagamitin ko.

"So bisitahin niyo na lang ako ha?" I broke the silence.

They glared at me. That night they both sleep beside me. It's a sleepover with tears because they can't stop crying. Para namang hindi nila ma-aafford ang plane ticket, Carli even had their own family plane.

Mga mayayamang tao pero kung umasta parang mahirap.

MAG-AALAS dose na nang magising kaming tatlo. They both bid their goodbye and left. Kahit may sakit na nararamdaman ay nagawa ko pa ring bumaba para kumain.

Kinuha ko ang wallet at susi ng kotse sa kwarto dahil may gusto akong bilhin sa labas. Nag-drive ako papunta sa isang pharmacy para bilhin ang mga vitamins na pinabibili ng doctor kahapon.

After buying the vitamins, pumunta ako sa Starbucks para bumili ng frappe.

I got out from my car and directly walk towards the counter. I ordered frappe. Nang makuha ko ang order ko ay agad akong lumabas at pumasok ng kotse. Sumipsip muna ako at akmang bubuhayin na ang makina nang may pumasok sa kabilang pinto ng kotse.

Gulat na tumingin ako sa lalaking pumasok. My heart immediately went rigid seeing him again. The pain rose up again.

"Let's talk."

I gaped, "R-Rago..."