Shackles of Melancholia (Completed)

Chapter 18

Fantasy

I need to see my ob-gyne, I need a shot now. Hindi ako nagpi-pills dahil mas convenient ang shot at dahil mas epektibo ito.

Now I need to see my doctor.

Bumangon ako sa kama na wala nanaman si Axon. We didn't had sex last night, he just... uh.. Axon just kissed my neck before dozing off to my body, I think he's tired.

May nakita akong box ng isang cellphone sa nightstand at isang sulat. Kinuha ko ang sulat at binasa.

"This is your phone, my number is already there, also some restaurants you could order, just say my name when you did. Again Astra, don't contact anyone. I'll kill you.

-A. R"

A. R??

Whoah! Axon is a serious gold huh.

Kinuha ko ang box ng  cellphone na may logo ng apple. I unboxed it and opened the phone. Bakit pa niya i-b-box kung inilagay na niya dito ang bumber niya? So likely a sugar daddy.

Clients, especially the old ones will give you gifts. Mamahaling gadgets, designer bags, dresses, shoes. Sina Fran at Liqui, yun daw ang pinakamaganda sa trabaho nila. Kasi nabibigyan sila ng mamahaling gamit at nagkakapera pa sila. They say who wouldn't want a latest iPhone, a red pump, a Hermes bag?

Fran and Liqui, I think they'll find me. They will miss me. They are the person who will sincerely worry at me. Who will sincerely my bestfriends. Who will save me from sadness. I miss my bestfriends.

Nakita ko agad ang contact ni Axon. Agad ko siyang tinawagan. Dalawang ring lang ay sinagot na niya.

"Astra." I heard him sighed. Not in an annoyed way, he seems tired.

"Ano kasi, Axon kailangan kong pumunta sa ob-gyne ko."

"Magpahatid ka kila Edwin. Sasabihin ko sa kanila."

Mukhang naintindihan niya ako agad. Just Axon's voice can make me tingle all over.

"Edwin?"

"Yeah Edwin."

"Uh... kasi Axon, kung sa ob-gyne ko, masyadong malayo. M-may alam ka bang..."

I stopped when Axon chuckled.

"Alright, we will find one Astra."

I think it amused him  to be asked such thing.

"Okay."

Hinintay ko kung may sasabihin pa siya ngunit tanging paghinga lang niya ang naririnig ko.

"Okay."

"Okay,"I replied back.

"Uh Axon!" Tawag ko bago ko makalimutan.

"Uh?"

"A-are you clean?" It takes a lot of courage to ask him that.

We fuck without condoms. My clients fuck me with one. Pinaka-unang rule ata sa prostitution ay dapat malinis ka. If someone fuck you without condom it means they got tested. And as for Axon, I'm sure myself I'm clean. But I'm also sure Axon fuck a lot of women. Katulad nga ng sabi ni Hampton, more than one woman is on Axon's bed. Well above all, I hoped he's clean.

"Yes Astra, are you?" I'm sure I heard restraining in his voice and I don't know.

"Yes, I'm clean." I answered.

"Okay,"

"Okay,"

"Okay."

I'm smiling like an idiot when I ended the call. How could he make me feel this thing. Just hearing Axon voice makes me want to cuddle to him, I mean sex with him. Sex.