Things to read when you're sad :)

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I know that when I call, you won't pick up. I was there for you, the right place at the right time. The brokenness that I feel, the "never enough" to be checked up upon, the one whos always there for everyone else. I'm stuck between wanting so much, and wanting nothing at all. You were my best friend, you both were. What happened? I feel like i'm nothing. I can't smile anymore. I'm in pain. I'm so sad. Why me? Why do I feel like this? I feel like if I had just died, everything would make sense. I don't know how much time I have left. I don't know if I still wanna be here. I can't breathe. I'm not alive, I'm just living. I'm just here because I need to be. I feel numb. I can't feel okay. And the worst thing is that I don't know why. I can't explain it. People see me as happy and people see me for goofy, funny, easy to talk to. I can't see that within myself. I'm fucking depressed. I don't want to be here anymore.