Someone died, quite literally, in my family— but... I can't say that I'm in great grief as most would be in in this situation. To be frank, I'm... Uncertain how I should feel; in our belief, God has taken them because of one possible reason; to end their suffering. There are two other reasons why he'd let them 'rest' (or in how most of you understand: die), and this one seems to fit the most in their situation.
My relative had kidney stone, and after much consideration my parents brought her to the hospital; but because hospitals are often where the virus is, the rest of my family took my siblings and I to another house so the virus will not infect us when our parents come home. Them and the other portion of my family there will disinfect the house until we're safe to go back. Some time passed and well... The doctors couldn't perform surgery to save their life, so, they're being put into the coffin, as I speak.
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As I said, I'm... Uncertain, how things will move forward at this currency. I don't know if I should feel sad that I will never see them again, or relief that their in a safe place, and that they are put to rest. It's very conflicting... But I wouldn't say that I'm currently in great grief. I shouldn't let it consume me... For now... I'll be... Processing things. I'll be around to talk, but not as enthusiastic or, energetic, sadly. I apologize..
With lots of love and hope for your safety, V ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡
