𝐒𝐖𝐀𝐍 𝐅𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐒 - 𝙨𝙝𝙞𝙧𝙖𝙩𝙤𝙧𝙞𝙯𝙖𝙬𝙖

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𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒓𝒂𝒃𝒖 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒂 𝒔/𝒐 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒂𝒏 𝒆𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒅𝒊𝒔𝒐𝒓𝒅𝒆𝒓

❁ུ۪*❃ུ۪*❀⑅*❁ུ۪

- he has read a lot about mental illnesses during his college time and added to that, he is a very intelligent and observing person, so he quickly notices your patterns

- counting your calories, making excuses that you already ate, avoiding foods with high fat, weighing yourself each morning and evening, refusing to go out to eat with him, the list goes on

- he needs a little time to think about the right way to approach you and talk about this so that he won't hurt your feelings

- he may act like a sassy lil shit to others, but since he notices that you are uncertain about your appearance, he would never make a bad comment about how you look

- instead, he praises you and makes sure to tell you that you look beautiful, no matter if you're wearing make up or just got out of bed

- but he quickly notices that your morphed vision of your own body is way too strong and one time, in the middle of the night, he hears you throwing up in the bathroom

- he waits for you to come out and then asks if you can talk and you hesitantly nod

- even though he planned out a few things to say to you in this case, the entire scene overwhelms him and he's not sure what to say, so he tells you that he's there for you and you start crying

- you're actually thankful because he doesn't ask questions or makes you feel guilty by asking why you haven't told him about your illness

- it feels good to finally be able to cry your heart out and at one point, you start to cling to his shirt, sobbing apologies because you're such a mess, that you hate yourself and how you look, that you don't want anyone else to see you because you feel so disgusted by yourself

- he allows you to speak out whatever you need to say and when you are done and your breathing is a little more calm, he starts to list all the things he loves about you

- he says that the voice inside of your head is a little bitch and he's ready to fight it and that makes you laugh a little, to which he smiles and pushes a kiss against your lips, assuring you that you will get through this, that you're stronger than your illness and that no matter if you feel weak or strong, he's there to support you

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Tears stung in your eyes as you gagged around your finger in your throat, the bitter taste of bile filling your mouth.

Panting and blinking out a tear that ran down your cheek, you pushed your body back, your knees hurting from resting on the hard tiles of the bathroom.

Feeling empty and a little cleaner, you rose to your feet and walked towards the sink, where the water was still running to drown the noises of you throwing up.

After washing out your mouth and your lips, you walked out the door and winced a little when Shirabu suddenly stood in front of you.

“Are you okay?”

You put on a smile and nodded, trying to ignore the still sour taste in your throat.

“Did you throw up?” he asked and gently took your hand, caressing its back.