𝐒𝐖𝐀𝐍 𝐅𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐒 - 𝙨𝙝𝙞𝙧𝙖𝙩𝙤𝙧𝙞𝙯𝙖𝙬𝙖

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𝒔𝒆𝒎𝒊 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒂 𝒔/𝒐 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒔𝒆𝒙𝒖𝒂𝒍 𝒕𝒓𝒂𝒖𝒎𝒂

❁ུ۪*❃ུ۪*❀⑅*❁ུ۪

- when you get together, you are too ashamed to tell Semi what you had gone through, so you keep quiet about it, hoping you could forget it with him

- everything is fine at first, you go out, kiss, laugh, have deep talks, listen to music, everything normal couples do

-but you know that one day, he will ask you if you want to sleep with him

- and you fear that day

- within the following months, his kisses get rougher and more passionate, his hands loose their hesitance and start to run over your body, but you can't tell him that you don't want him to go further, that you're afraid to feel his fingers on the skin that was hidden and kept safe beneath the textile of your clothes

- your fear wraps around your throat like a rope and you just lie there, stiff and feeling your heart beat faster

- when he slowly pushes up your shirt and the tips of his fingers run over your stomach, you can't hold it in anymore and you start crying

- it's so silent that Semi doesn't notice it at first, but when he does, he stares at you in pure shock, before pulling back and moving his body next to you, looking at you and apologizing over and over for not noticing that he had made you feel uncomfortable

- he tries to give you as much personal space as possible and it takes you a while to calm down

- after he asks you if he did something wrong, you tell him that it isn't his fault and with a hesitant voice, you tell him the story of how you had been broken in so many parts of your soul

- it's obvious how much it upsets him, even though he manages to stay calm, you see tears of fury in his eyes and notice how tensed his fingers are

- he can't believe that someone would do that to a person and he has to restrain himself not to get up and punch that person in the face, giving them what they deserve after treating you so horribly

- but he reminds himself that this is about you and he asks how he can help you, politely asks what your boundaries are and tells you to show him when he's going too far in your opinion

- you nod and tell him how bad you feel for declining him such a fun part about a relationship, but he just smiles at you and tells you that it wouldn't be fun if it made you suffer

- he really takes his time with you, always stops when you ask him to and makes sure you understand that your body belongs to you and only to you

- with each month, you feel a little more comfortable and you start to get braver and braver thanks to Semi's patience

- at first, you allow him to kiss your shoulders, then after a few weeks, you feel comfortable with his lips against your ribcage and after another few weeks, you can stay fully relaxed when he is spreading kisses over your stomach

- he also is in contact with the therapist you visit because of what happened, asking them what he can do to make you feel comfortable and happy