𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐁𝐎𝐘𝐒 𝐋𝐎𝐂𝐊𝐄𝐑 𝐑𝐎𝐎𝐌; 𝐜𝐡𝐨𝐞𝐧

➝ ᵗʷᵉⁿᵗʸ⁻ᵗʰʳᵉᵉ

warning - suicide.
⊰ 𝙽𝚘𝚎𝚗'𝚜 𝙿𝙾𝚅 ⊱

i sat at the table with the guys just joking and laughing like normal when i looked over at our old table to see chase sitting by himself.
he had his head down in his arms on the table..
was he crying?
oh no. he was crying.
no shut up 😟
ugh. 
i made him cry.
i'm a liar.
and a user.
and a jerk.
i should've just excepted the fact that chase was right and told the others the truth.
and i shouldn't have call him our on his mental issues, thats not my place. 
i need to apologize, and i need to make it upto him.
but just as i got ready to get up and go over there, he got up and left.
i watched him walk by us with the tears streaming his face.
poor thing. i can't believe i just did that..
after school, i made my way back to the room and waited for chase to show up so i can apologize.
little did i know, he wasn't going to show up.
i sat on my bed and waited, but he didn't come.
i stayed until at least 4am waiting, and he didn't come back. 
my only worry was where he was is.
was he safe.
why was he gone so long.
after everything i did and made him feel, he could be off trying to kill himself right now.
oh my god.
what if he's trying to kill himself right now?!
i immediately put my sneakers on and left the room, heading off to find chase.
i searched everywhere.
the library.
the music room.
the math class.
the club lodge.
the auditorium.
the pools.
the campus.
i even went around the dorm building asking people if they seen him and he was nowhere to be found.
i ran the lacrosse field and the football back and fourth calling his name to see if he was around.
he wasn't on the bleachers, or in the shed.
he was nowhere to be found.
then, i remembered the one place i hadn't checked. 
the locker rooms.
i sped off to the gym in pure panic.
"chase? chase?" i called, looking around.
i went into the locker room quickly looking around. 
"chase?" 
i passed one of the walls that blocked the bathroom from the rest of the locker rooms, seeing chase passed out against the wall with slit wrists.
i immediately broke out into tears. i knelt down next to him and started to look for my phone, but i remembered i left it at the room.
i started to look for his phone, but it was nowhere to be found.
so what did i do?
i screamed.
at the top of my lungs i screamed.
"HELP! HELP! SOMEBODY PLEASE, HE'S HURT! HELP!" i screamed.
it was only a few minutes before somebody came in.
"what the hell is going- CHASE!" griffin said. he immediately called and ambulance.
i did my best to hold it together and kept track of his pulse from his neck.
eventually, the policed showed up with the fire department and an ambulance.
then, we were off to the hospital.