It's been a long time since
I've talked to death
My friend wanted to die
The scars on her wrists prove it
For me...
I don't want to be put in the category of a skin drawer
I don't want to be deemed suicidal
I don't want to be called mentally unstable
But death is the one constant thing that has always been in my mind
I don't wanna be the one to take my life
I don't wanna be the person in my grade that killed themselves.
I don't wanna be the one that everyone says that they could have saved
I want to die for something
I am not afraid of death
The faster I get out of this hell and put into another
If I would have to die I would wanna die for a reason
Not because I am depressed
Not because I wanted to
By saving someone
Cause their life is more important that mine
They have people who want them here
I don't
I don't even want myself to be here
I don't even want to live
I just wanna eat something and never wake up
But then
If I do wake up
That's a whole other problem
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My nickname now is Syn so
Stay weird
~ Syn
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