Why can't you see? (BoyxBoy)

Chapter 12. Edited

Chapter 12 ~

"Why are you hugging my boyfriend?" Someone shouted at me. I turned around and saw a blonde boy. "Your boyfriend?" I asked him and looked at Tyler. "Is that Scott?" I asked him. He nodded and I turned white. No. You've got to be kidding me. "Come to me after school, there's something I need to tell you." With that I walked away, well actually ran away. I'm so sorry for him. I really am. I walk towards my locker and saw Jade and Darcy already standing at my locker. I looked confused. "Hey, what are you guys doing at my locker?" I asked. "We saw what happened in the hallway. Why did you ran away?" Darcy asked. "Well, Scott used to be my boyfriend. Back at my parents. We kept it a secret, but after a while he wanted me to tell my parents. Obviously I didn't want to and every time I told him that I didn't tell my parents he had beat me up, but he made sure it was underneath my clothes so no one would notice." I finished, flinching about the memory. "I don't want Tyler to go through the same thing. I don't even know what he is doing here. How could I have known that the same Scott would be here." I mumbled. Jade snapped her finger in front of my face. "Snap out of it." She smiled. "Are you going to tell him?" She asked. "Yeah off course! What if he beat him up too?" I exclaimed.

"Who will beat who up?" I heard behind me. I closed my eyes. You've got to be kidding me. I turned around. Scott. "You know very well who." I growled. He shrugged. "I don't know what you're talking about." He grinned. "I swear, if you ever lay a finger on him. I'll beat you myself." I said with a deathglare. "O dear, I'm very scared right now." He faked a scared look on his face but then laughed very loudly. "Well, you should be." I looked behind Scott and saw Jasper and James standing there. This time it was mine time to grin. "Oh and why would I?" Scott said to James. James shrugged and gave him a punch in the face. "Because of that." Scott fell on the ground. Before he could get up Tyler walked towards him. "Scott, everything okay? Your nose is bleeding." He asked worried and I closed my eyes for a second and looked at Darcy and Jade. "Was it you Damien?" He looked at me angry. I looked over at James and he nodded. "No, it was James." Tyler's head shot to James. "Why the hell would you punch such a sweet boy?" I saw James smiling. "Well Tyler, maybe you should know a little more about someone before you decide to be someone's boyfriend." And with that James and Jasper left. "Tyler." Scott mumbled. "Oh Scott, are you okay?" Scott nodded. "Yeah now that you're here I'm fine." Tyler smiled and kissed his forehead. As soon as I saw that I got tears in my eyes. Darcy grabbed my hand. "Come on. Let's get you out of here." With that the bell rang and I nodded.

I was lying on the couch, waiting for Tyler when my phone went. "Damien." I answered the phone, because I didn't care to look to the caller ID. "Hey, it's Tyler. Look I know I promised you to come over but I'm with Scott at the hospital. He needed some stitches." Tyler almost whispered. "Fine, just be careful." I answered him. "What do you me-" before he could finish I hung up. If you want to know you should be sitting next to me, not be with that that dick. "To who were you talking?" I turned around and saw my mum standing there. "To Tyler, he ditched me for his boyfriend." I said, looking away. "Oh honey, I'm so sorry for you. Do you want me to make you some tea?" She asked worried. I just nodded.

I was nice to talk to her like that. I'm at my room right now. After I finished my tea I went upstairs. I looked at the corner of my room and saw my guitar standing there. I thought for a moment but got up and grabbed my guitar and sat back down on my bed.

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Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place,
Like somehow you just don't belong,
And no one understands you?

Do you ever want to run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud,
That no one hears you screaming?

No, you don't know what it's like,
When nothing feels alright,
You don't know what it's like,
To be like me!

To be hurt, to feel lost,
To be left out in the dark,
To be kicked, when you're down,
To feel like you've been pushed around,
To be on the edge of breaking down,
When no one's there to save you,
No you don't know what it's like,
Welcome to my life

Do you want to be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more,
Before your life is over?

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies,
While deep inside you're bleeding?

No you don't know what it's like,
When nothing feels alright,
You don't know what it's like,
To be like me!

To be hurt, to feel lost,
To be left out in the dark,
To be kicked, when you're down,
To feel like you've been pushed around,
To be on the edge of breaking down,
When no one's there to save you,
No you don't know what it's like,
Welcome to my life

No one ever lies straight to your face!
No one ever stabs you in the back!
You might think I'm happy,
But I'm not gonna be okay!

Everybody always gave you what you wanted!
You never had to work, it was always there!
You don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt, to feel lost,
To be left out in the dark,
To be kicked, when you're down,
To feel like you've been pushed around,

To be on the edge of breaking down,
When no one's there to save you,
No you don't know what it's like,

To be hurt, to feel lost,
To be left out in the dark,
To be kicked, when you're down,
To feel like you've been pushed around,
To be on the edge of breaking down,
When no one's there to save you,
No you don't know what it's like,
Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life!

Welcome to my life!

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When I finished my song I heard something at my door. "Hello?" I called. After a few seconds the door opened slowly. "Your mum let me in." Tyler said, standing at the door. "That was amazing Damien." He continued. I just shrugged. "What are you doing here? Didn't you need to be with Scott?" I spat. He looked hurt. "What is wrong with you?" He asked in disbelief. "Since I told you I have a boyfriend you've been acting weird. Harsh. You're my best friend Damien, you can talk to me." He said with almost tears in his eyes. I feel terrible. I don't know what to say to him. "It's about the thing I wanted to tell you. I have so much to tell you but one thing I just can't, I'm so sorry." I whispered the last part. "Then what's the part you can tell me." He almost begged me. "It's about Scott." He laughed. "Yeah right, what could you possible know about Scott what I don't?" I looked at my lap. "More than you think. Do you know where he comes from?" I asked him. "Yeah off course, Doncaster." I nodded. "Yes and where did I live 2 years ago, before I came here?" "Donca- oh.." he drifted off. "Tell me what you know please." I patted next to me on the bed. "You may need to sit down for that." He looked at me in horror but did it anyway. "Scott used to be my boyfriend back in Doncaster. It was before I came out and no one knew about me being gay. Scott was popular and everyone knew that he was gay so they didn't bully him. But after a month or 7 he asked me to tell my parents. I refused because I knew they wouldn't approve. He let it go for a month or so but then he kept asking me. I refused every time. Every time I refused he got angrier. Until.." I needed to pause. Tyler wiped a tear away. I hadn't noticed that I had cried. I smiled weakly to him. He smiled back. Damn those beautiful eyes. That's when I lost it and started to cry like crazy. Tyler pulled me into a hug. "Oh Damien, you're scaring me right now.." Tyler whispered. "He just to beat me up Ty! I don't want it to happen to you too!" I cried even harder, if that was even possible. "Oh but Damien, everyone knows I'm gay. He won't beat me up." He said softly. Through my tears I looked at him in disbelief. "You're kidding me right?" He shook his head. "No I'm not. He won't beat me up. He loves me." I stood up. "He used to love me too! But because I didn't do what he told me he beat me up! Tyler you don't understand!" I yelled to him. I slapped my hand over my mouth when I realized I yelled to him. "O my god, sorry Tyler. I didn't mean to yell at you." I quickly sat down to pull him into a hug, but the damage was already made. "Go away, I don't want to talk to you anymore! You're just jealous because he's my boyfriend now!" This time it was his time to yell at me. "No, that isn't because of that! It's because I lo-" As soon as I realized what I was going to say I shut my mouth. "That you what Damien?" He asked. "Forget about it, it doesn't matter now anyway." I said, walking away from him. Afraid his eyes will let me tell him, but I won't. "You're scared." I heard him whisper. Damn he knows me so well. "If you're afraid of losing me as a friend. I assure you that's not going to happen, ever." I turned around and flashed a smile to him. "Sorry, it's hard for me y'know. I don't want anything to happen to my best friend." I sighed. "I know Damien." He said, pulling me into a hug. "Please be careful." I whispered in his ear and I felt him shiver. "Are you okay?" I asked, pulling back from the hug. "Yeah yeah I am. Want to play some games?" He smirked. "Oh hell yeah." I smirked back.

Finally things where back as they were. I was lying in my bed. Tyler stayed the night. I asked if Scott didn't mind but he just shrugged and said that I was his best friend and all. I just nodded and we went to bed, but I just can't sleep. I keep thinking about Scott, how he just to beat me. I'm so scared that it will happen to Tyler too. I know it's hard to walk away then. We broke up because my parents made me move here. I forgot about him as soon as I layed my eyes on Tyler. You can say the love that I had for Scott was long gone. I sighed. What should I do? Just acting there's nothing wrong, or telling Tyler to break up with Scott? Which might ruin our friendship. "Damien, why are you awake?" Tyler asked with this sleepy voice. "Just can't sleep, that's all." I said turning to him. He smiled. "Don't worry about me. First I can take care of myself, second if he ever lays a hand on me I will break up with him. Promise?" I closed my eyes for a second. "It's hard to walk away then." Tyler didn't respond, but pulled me closer to him sort of hugging me. "You will help me. I'm sure. Now we're going to cuddle and you're going back to sleep." I just nodded. He wrapped his arms around me and kissed my head. I smiled. "Oops, don't tell Scott." I laughed a bit. "My mouth is shut."

I can get used to this.

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A/N Hello!

On the right side is Jasper White, one of the boys who 'saved' Damien from Adam. AKA Zayn Malik