The Maze Runner Newt x girl Glader

Chapter 2: I Don't Wanna Lose You Again

While the others were trying make another plan to save Minho, Newt decided to have a talk with me alone.

"Jacqui...listen. While we're breaking in W.C.K.D. and saving Minho, I need you to stay here with Aris, Sonya, and Harriet, okay? This is gonna be a dangerous mission and I don't want you to get hurt, killed, or taken away again. I don't wanna lose you again." Newt says to me while looking straight in my brown eyes.

"No, I'm coming with you. And another thing, Minho's my friend, too." I respond.

"I know, I know, but when you got taken by W.C.K.D., I...It was all my fault. I should've been there with you to help you. It should've been me who got taken. Not you." Newt says as tears fill his eyes.

"No! No no no no! Don't you ever say that again! Okay? It wasn't your fault at all! Not one bit! It's mine. I...I should've watched where I was going since it was crowded and I wouldn't have tripped and then got taken. It's mine." I say to him while feeling a little guilty.

"Still. I can't lose you again. I've been through hell after you got taken. I thought I was never gonna see you again. I can't let you come." Newt says as he starts to raise his voice. Something's not right.

"Newt...please...Calm down." I put my hand on his cheek to calm him down. Instead he grips my wrist pretty hard and lashes out at me. This wasn't him.

"NO! I DON'T WANNA LOSE YOU AGAIN, JACQUI! YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT I'VE BEEN THROUGH WHILE YOU WERE GONE!" he yells at me in anger. I knew this wasn't the real Newt. The real Newt was always soothing and talks gently.

"I do know what you've been through. I've been through a lot, too. Newt, what's going on with you? This isn't you." I say, feeling intimidated by his anger, but hiding it because I know this wasn't him talking. He's been the one comforting me countless times, and now it's my turn to comfort him. I can see in his eyes, he realized what he just did.

"Jacqui, I'm...I'm so sorry...I didn't mean..." Newt says as he tries to explain. I put a hand on his cheek and try to get him to look at me.

"No...it's okay. I know what you've been through, okay? You've been going through the same thing I have. We felt...broken. Alone. Angry. But...Thomas came up with a plan to save us all and it worked perfectly. You guys saved us. We finally reunited. I'm safe." I comfort him.

"Yeah, we saved you all except Minho." Newt says still giving up.

"True, but...at least you saved some of us first and then we can finally get him back. Let me help." I say, trying to convince him.

"No...I lost you two times. Once you ran in the maze, then you got taken by W.C.K.D., and I can't lose you again. I just can't..." Newt's voice breaks and I see a tear stream down his cheek. We lean our foreheads together and I wipe his tear.

"Newt...I'll be okay. Remember I survived the maze and then you and the others came up with the plan to save us and we found our way back to each other. I can get through this, too. And also I don't wanna lose you, too." I comfort him and then I start tearing up.

"You won't. Don't worry about me. But I need you safe." Newt whispers. I'm still worried about him, so I outsmart him cuz I have a plan. I sigh in defeat.

"Okay. I'll stay with Aris, Sonya, and Harriet. Just be careful." I sniffle and try to fight back tears, but they stream down my cheeks. Newt wipes my tears with his thumbs and kisses my cheek which gave me comfort.

"I will. I promise. In case I don't make it...promise me that you'll be safe and be happy. And find love again. Promise me." Newt whispers in my ear.

"Newt, I...I can't. I can't live without you. You're the reason I'm happy and I feel safe. And I'll never love anyone else as much I love you. Only you." I say sternly at him and more tears stream down my cheeks. He grips my body hard again. I'm getting worried about him even more.

"PROMISE ME! PLEASE! FOR ME!" he yells angrily in my face. I get intimidated.

"Newt, why are you acting like this? This isn't you at all. Talk to me. Please." I plead. He realized what he just did and sighed in defeat.

"Okay. I guess I can't hide this anymore." he looks down guilt. What was he talking about? He rolls up his sleeve and reveals his right arm. There were dark veins growing on his arm! He has the Flare! Now I get it, it's taking control of his anger! My heart shattered in little pieces that can't be put together ever again. I can't lose him just like we lost Alby, Chuck, Winston, and we almost lost Brenda. The only person who makes me happy and safe has the Flare.

"Oh my God...no...Why you?" I ask as heavy tears fill my eyes and my voice breaks.

"I couldn't tell you cuz I didn't want you to worry. And now you are. But I remembered that we needed to be honest with each other. And I didn't wanna lash out at you even more along the way with you not knowing I have it." he admits, looking down in guilt.

"You should've told me, Newt...I would've helped you...I can't lose you, Newt! I can't! Oh God...!" I start sobbing. Newt pulls me in for a hug in order to comfort me. He rubs my back with one hand and caresses my hair with the other hand.

"Shhhh...shhhhhhh...it's okay..." he whispers in my ear.

"No...it's not...I can't lose the only person who makes me safe and...helps me through hard times...I need you...If you died, I'd wanna kill myself in the process...I...I can't live my life without you...!" I sob in his chest even harder.

"Shh...no...don't think about that. Okay? I need you alive, happy, healthy, and safe. You matter so much to me. Don't worry about me." he tries to comfort me.

"But...but, I..." I get cut off as he shushes me and whispers comforting words in my ear. After crying in his chest for a few minutes, we pull apart. I sigh in defeat and accept his words, but I'm still not giving up on him. I still have a plan to come.

"Okay..." I sniffle and then look in Newt's pure, loving brown eyes. He caresses my cheek gently and kisses my lips very tenderly and comfortingly. He then kisses my forehead and whispers against it in which his warm breath gave me comfort.

"I love you...it's gonna be okay...I promise..." he whispers against my forehead and then kisses it once again. We pull apart and he rubs my back one last time before he walks away.

Once I was alone, I try to think of a plan how to stowaway on the berg.