I Think I'm Fallin In Love With My Best Friend

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My first day started out like any ordinary day.....

There was a new kid coming to our school and to be fair, he looked handsome hehe.

I didn't know what to think.

"But look at his cute face with pink lips that I could kiss and puny body that I would take over and caress and he would be the loving guy I need to be happy..."

But I woke up and it was a dream.
Suddenly, it didn't seem like a dream, HE was my classmate and he introduced to the whole class.

I'm not even sure what I feel but I know I might be attracted to guys. I don't even know what I want or even like.

I am Connor Stevens for crying out loud!

The captain of the football and soccer team and always a smart-ass who gets every answer correct and also, did I mention I might be gay?!

Ugh my feelings for this guy is unquestionable but I am straight!

I can't be in love with a gay guy, can I?

Whatever happened to just crushes and the term "friendzoned"?

The only girl I liked turned me down because he liked my bestfriend who moved away last year.

I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M FEELING AT THIS MOMENT!