agony. |darth maul

thirteen.

I fucked up.

I mean- I fucked up.

With a growl Maul shoves me off him and I'm on the ground flat on my back once again.

"Maul!" I call out because even without seeing him I know he's a million miles away, "Dude- I- "

The look he's giving me is near feral and he's closed himself completely off from anything near to a force bond we have. I have no clue what I just did and I realize this short lapse of reasonable thought could be costing me my life or limbs.

"I'm so sorry, please just-" I stand up and he backs away, hunched in some type of predatory position- I feel awful. "Consider it a lapse in judgment?"

***

We walk back in silence, even I can't find pointless chatter to fill the agonizing silence between us. I don't even know if he understands what a kiss really is, I know he doesn't get around much.

As soon as we're back to the hotel Maul is meditating and it's the middle of the night but I'm acting like I'm working as I loudly click through my data pad. I'm not working, really I'm not doing anything, not even thinking much.

When I felt the bed dip-and oh did I mention we share a bed? It wouldn't be so bad if I didn't completely ruin any chance we had at friendship- I grimace.

He knows I'm awake and I definitely know he's not falling asleep until I fall asleep. There's a moment of silence before I click off the data pad and loudly sigh, turning to Maul. Of course, he staring right back.

"Don't make this weird, I doubt a kiss is the worst thing that's happened to you," there's a hint of a teasing tone in my voice, but it's outplayed by the desperation of me trying to make it sound normal.

"We are not friends."

My eyes widen for a quarter of a second before I slap a hand over my mouth to keep myself from laughing.

"Maybe- maybe you think it like that," I can't stop from laughing and oh god he thinks the kiss was my way of showing friendship! "But I think we are friends. I mean, I'm really one of the two people you talk to."

Maul growls something low in a language I don't understand, causing me to laugh harder as I clap out the lights.

Shrouded in darkness, I grin once more. I'm sure Maul can see in the dark, and see my stupid grinning face. He doesn't try and deny us being friends once again.

Okay I have everything in this fic written down and planned out except the end so that's pretty wild huh. I would suspect 10 more chapters? Depends on how I split things up. also this was all filler but ejdbsjbd every chapter can't be a winner