y'all ever listen to clairo while losigm ur shit
trigger warning; guilt, lotsa colors and for people who have synesthesia and get. colorful panic attacks, this is fairly detailed. also a glass falling and cracking happens like once. blood.
take care of yourselves;
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guiltyguiltyguilty
oh.
i thought i was going to manage
but the red is everywhere
its everywhere,
its every-
guilty.
guilty.
guilty.
why did i think i could be strong?
where did this sense of hope fly over to or am i going down?
again!
red,
red, red
green,
no,
black, blue,
stop!
my voice is giving in,
my ears are bleeding, seconds leaving,
red, red, red,
green,
no,
black, blue,
stop,
six fingers on one hand, no,
this isn't where i like to go,
six, six,
opal, mint,
are you counting?
do you feel?
glass.
falling.
slip, crack,
magenta music tearing through my+
seven, eight, four,
ten?
that sequence never
makes sense,
i haven't bled in so long,
my eyes are bleeding, blue is showing,
orange, yellow
five, seven,
two, two, green,
what?
nothings adding,
nothings adding,
nothing adds up?
colors. flying.
no success,
no happiness,
dull, plain insight,
it's been so long,
its been so long,
since my eyes seen this much li-
li-
li-
light?
YOU ARE READING
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