"Give your daughters difficult names. Give your daughters names that command the full use of tongue. My name makes you want to tell me the truth. My name doesn't allow me to trust anyone that cannot pronounce it right."
My Valide ordered aghas to prepare chambers for me. I was so happy when I entered Topkapi. The place I was bornt. Place where I've lived my most beautiful years.
They prepared me my old chambers, where I have been living until I married. They said to me that some Ahmed's concubine took it, but they gave her new ones. Because they wanted me to have my old chambers. And I was happy about that.
Bulbul-aga and Cennet Kalfa made sure everything is fine and everything is the way I like it, because they knew me well.
I sat on the couch of my chambers, and so many memories came back to me. I remembered the time while my father, late Sultan Murad Khan, was still alive. Thoughts took all over me, until someone came into my chambers.
- Ismihan, welcome. - Handan, Ahmed's mother said as she came into my chambers. After Ahmed became Sultan, she became Valide Sultana. Her only wish was to get rid of my mother, Valide Safiye Sultan.
- Handan, the thing that you are Valide Sultan now can't stop you from calling me by my title, Sultana. - I said to her and gave her fake smile. At that moment she bowed to me, because she haven't done it before.
- Excuse me, Sultana. I didn't know that would bother you so much. - she said to me while she looked at me at some weird way.
- Well now you know. - I said to her with a fake smile. She came closer to me and sat next to me on my couch.
- Ahmed's concubine Mahfiruze used those chambers, but they gave her the different ones. Bulbul-aga insisted that you need to have those chambers. Why? - Handan asked me with her head raised.
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- So, Handan, you would like to say that I should get new chambers because of some slave? - I asked her trying to make fun of her words.
- No, I didn't mean it like that. - Handan said, but she was lost in her words. She was lost usually. She wasn't suitable for position of Valide Sultana, because she was a person who didn't use her brain. She has always been too emotional and that is not suitable for a Valide Sultana.
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- I thought you would rather want to stay in Palace with your husband, Grand Vizier Yavuz Ali-paşa. Why you decided to stay in Harem instead? - Handan asked me while she tried to act smart. But I saw she knows something is not right here, when she already knows about it.
- I wanted to see my mother, my sister and my brave nephew who became Sultan. I wanted to be closer to them. I didn't know you should be the one who I should tell everything to. - I said to her and fake smiled to her.
- I meant, its obvious that your relationship is very cold? - she asked me raising her head towards me.
- You should better watch at your job instead of mixing into my love life. - I said to her raising my head in front of her.
- Well, I don't know if you need any medical help. Its obvious you cant stay pregnant. Four years have passed.. - Handan tried to say with a smile, but I siganlised her with my hand to stop talking.
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- Everything is perfectly fine with my health condition. You shouldnt even think about that. You should better watch at your own buisness than thinking of my life. I won't tolerate those words like those anymore. - I said to her and looked away.
- I am sorry if I said something wrong. - Handan said, but I saw she is not sorry for her acts. I saw Bulbul-aga is in my room, so I used perfect time to do what I wanted.
- Bulbul-aga, please escort Handan from my chambers. I have no time for that. - I said to him and fake smiled to Handan. She looked at me with surprise about my words.
- You are becoming same like your mother, you poor child. What they have done with you. - Handan said to me while she was looking at me with some kind of disgust.
- I wouldnt have anything against being like my mother. I think you would also want to be like my mother, loved and respected by everyone. But unfornatley, you are never going to be that. - I gave her a fake smile while she was leaving my chambers.
I never liked Handan. She was woman without a charachter. I did never get along with her, even though she tried to be good with me.
I was much better with Halime, another wife of my brother. Halime was similiar to me, and thats why I supported her and still will give my everything to keep my nephew Mustafa alive.
At that moment, Fahriye came into my chambers. She seemed really happily today, like never before.
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- Ismihan, would you like to go with me outside now? - Fahriye asked me mysteriously which made me ask myself, where could she go with me now?
- Where do you want to go? - I asked her as I was really interested.
- I want to meet with someone, and I can't do it alone. Valide would be really angry if she would find out about it. - Fahriye said and looked at me sadly, because she know that if I would see her sad I would accept.
- Okay, so we go to see Mehmed Giray. - I said to her as I got up from couch.
- Ismihan, how do you know? - she asked me surprisedly. She couldn't believe how could I know for her secret relationship with Mehmed.
- I saw how you are looking at eachother today, and then I understood everything. - I said to her as I was putting my coat on arms, and I was ready to go out.
