Back In Time

Thinking

(Mitch's POV)

Trying to get Scott to fall in love with me has been hard. Like, really hard. He's Always with Alex and when he is with me he's talking about Alex. Also my Anxiety starts kicking in whenever I even start to think about telling Scott my feelings which I hate.

It was still the year 2013 and I was getting bored. 2013 was not as fun as how our life went after 2013.

I missed 28 year old me, and 29 year old Scott and 28 year old Kirstie, and 32 year old Kevin and 26 year old Matt.

But right now, Matt didn't exist and the other ages didn't exist. We were all young and just starting out even though I know everything, they don't.

I can't risk changing anything, except Scott and I's relationship. Everything crashes and burns between Scott and I and I really don't wanna go through that again.

I kinda like being 21 again, I mean, Scott and I were so close and next year we'll be closer and the next year we'll be unbelievably close and the next year we'll start acting like a married couple.

When Scott meets Mark everything goes down hill. We get into this huge fight and then our friendship is awkward. I mean, we obviously made up, but we still didn't act the same.

(Flash back)
I was looking at Scott who was ignoring me on the couch "hello?" Scott looked up "sorry, what? I'm just texting Mark." I scoff "you're always texting Mark."

Scott scoffs "what is that supposed to mean?" I cross my arms "nothing. It's just ever since you two started dating you don't hang out with me nearly as much anymore."

Scott put his phone down "yeah, because I have a boyfriend. This is my first real boyfriend after Alex, I thought you would be happy for me."

I gasp "so what? I haven't been happy for you?" Scott sighs "Mitch-" I get up off the couch "I was the one who took you to that party that night. If we never went, you wouldn't have met him. You know that."

Scott gets off the couch too "Oh, so...I should thank you?" I nod "yes!" Scott scoffs "you are unbelievable."

"Me?" I ask, astonished he nods "yes, you. I never shamed any of the guys you slept with, and I use the word slept because you never dated any of them. Travis was a good guy but you couldn't see that, could you? You were so distant from him so on New Years Eve he broke up with you. People think he abused you and made you feel worthless and you don't even correct them that Travis gave you the world yet you couldn't give him the time of day."

I was shocked, my own best friend was talking to me this way. I was about to speak up but he kept going.

"But what the fans don't know is that all those bruises that you try to cover up were from Caleb, Anthony, Jake, Pete, and I was the one who gave up having a life just so I could take care of you. I shouldn't have to give up everything for you. I tried to be a good friend for you and now you're acting as if you own me and I can't have a life."

I am near tears "I never said that I own you. I want you to be happy I just don't want you to forget about me in the process. I went through hell and back and you know it, but that's just because-" I cut myself off.

Was I really going to tell Scott my actual feelings towards him? He was right, Travis was sweet and kind and actually loved me but I was in love with Scott and that's why I never gave him the time of day, so I slept around no matter how bad they hurt me just to get over Scott. But I couldn't. I was so fucked up.

Scott stood there, waiting for me to continue. I wiped a tear that had escaped and licked my lips "you, know, I think I'm going to stay with Kirstie for a few days. I'm going to move out and find myself a house."

I walk away and left Scott there.
(End of Flashback)

We made up a few days later, but it was never the same after that. I asked God a hundred times to go back in time and do that day over, if I had just kept my mouth shut or if I had just told him right then and there that I love him, things would've been different and now I have the chance to do it over and I don't even know how.

I notice Scott come into the apartment and says "Hey, you're awake." I nod "yeah. I was just thinking." Scott nodded "I got you a Caramel Macchiato" I smile "you're a life saver."

He laughs "I know, so what were you thinking about???" I bite my lip "the future." Scott takes a sip of his coffee and says "I wonder how the future will look like for Pentatonix."

I bite my lip "it will be big and grand." Scott nodded "I hope so." I look down and Scott says "I am going to take a shower. Then we can go do whatever." I nod and he walks away.

Carlos appears out of nowhere and I've gotten use to it so I don't jump "hey, " he says as I put my coffee cup down "how am I going to tell him?" Carlos sat on my bed next to me and said "Just say 'hey, I like you' plain and simple."

I roll my eyes "have you ever told someone you like them?" Carlos shook his head and I smiled "exactly, you wouldn't know." Carlos gasped "I'm offended."

I giggle and when Scott comes out the bathroom, he's dressed and we leave.

Later that night we fall asleep watching a thriller and when I wake up I yawn and see it's already the next morning and I feel a scruff and see that I'm not skinny but I'm not as big as I was either.

Ugh, not again....

I check my phone and groan as I see the date...

November, 28th, 2014