P.S. I Love You - Third Book of MHB Series - Ross Lynch/R5 Fanfic

Chapter 17 - It's All Okay

Chapter 17

The Weight is attached.

Carter-

Its been a couple weeks since Dad's funeral. We all try not to think about it, but it's like a weight that's there saying he's gone.

"Carter," Ariel pleads with me. "Please eat. I need you to. This isn't healthy."

I haven't been eating properly. I should, I know that, but I just never feel like it anymore. It's all tasteless.

She sighs. "Carter. I'll call your mom if you won't."

"Ar," I whisper. "Just... help then please?"

Ashley-

"Hey guys," I manage a smile as Delly, and Ell come in to visit for awhile. "How've you been?"

"Good, good," Ell closes the door behind them, and we sit in the living room, Jewel coming down too.

"Aunt Dels! Uncle Ell!" She exclaims. Of course she's sad about Ross, but he was away for the first couple years of her life, and he got older, so he couldn't play and run around like he did with Carter and Belle, but he tried.

"Hey J," they both smile distantly.

We go on to talk just about nothing and everything, and before we know it, the pair have left. I sigh, walking up the stairs, toward what is just now my room, but when I walk in, it feels as if there's a weight coming down on me.

I frown at the feeling, and the emptiness of the room, but walk toward the piano at the far right side, near the window, sitting on the bench.

Wanna go back,

Forget that it's over

Paint it in black,

When you left me alone

I never knew,

She was sleeping next door with the kid I grew up with,

And I can't go back to her anymore, no

You tell me you were happier with him, you want me to stay

And you tell me that you needed time but you pushed me away

And when you try to take me back, my heavy heart just breaks

No, I can't lift the weight

Put you in the past,

Try to forget you 'cause it's over

And every time you ask

I'll pretend I'm okay

You're inside my head

In the middle of the night
When I don't feel right

I dream I can hold you,

And I can't go back to you anymore, yeah, yeah

You tell me you were happier with him, you want me to stay

And you tell me that you needed time but you pushed me away

And when you try to take me back, my heavy heart just breaks

But I can't lift the weight, and I can't lift the weight

And I can't lift the weight, no, I can't lift the weight

Yeah, you stand on my shoulders and my heart just breaks

And I can't lift the weight, no, I can't lift the weight

Yeah, you stand on my shoulders and my heart just breaks

And I can't lift the weight, no, I can't lift the weight

Yeah, you lower your standards and I raise the stakes

And I can't lift the weight, no, I can't lift the weight

Tell me you were happier with him, but you want me to stay

And you tell me that you needed time but you, you pushed me away

And when you try to take me back, my heavy heart just breaks

But I can't lift the weight, and I can't lift the weight

Tell me you were happier with him, but you want me to stay

You told me that you needed time but you, you pushed me away

And when you try to take me back, say someday you will change,

But I don't wanna wait

Carter-

'Hi Dad,

I miss you. That's like a 'I really REALLY miss you' miss you statement. But how are you? How's heaven treating you? I really wish you still here with us...

I really don't want this to be a long sob story, but honestly, this is. But hopefully I'll write to you more soon.

Love you,

C xo'

I purse my lips as I fold the paper, slipping it in the envelope I'll use for the others too.

I think it might be okay.

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