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|5| Lovin' seems a losin' deal

Use the quote of James Joyce by one of your characters.

"I think of you so often, you have no idea."

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❝ It was either loving you or just losing myself ❞

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Life is unpredictable! You don't know how & when the tables will be turned out. I guess that's why people always say be prepared to expect the unexpected.

Consequently, I didn't even know myself, I would be in that awkward situation once again. But a few years back, the atmosphere was different, I was different.

10 years back~

As a 17 years old girl, people always often say that I should be more freely, outgoing. Hence, the other girls around my age, always jolly, kinda more like amiable.

But they didn't know that being more outgoing, freely doesn't define you. It's just a part of your personality.

I always find my solace in solitary. I know, it's weird. Yet aren't we all weird in some way as we were born with different intellect?

This chirping of birds, gentle breeze always gave me peace. Whenever I feel low, I just want escapism. Yeah, escape from my bittersweet reality. This place is my escape.

I randomly found this place, when I was just running from my bad day. From then, it became my escape. No one knows about it. Whenever I feel low, I just come here & spend some time.

Today is different as nothing happened. I just wanted a little bit of time for myself. I should get going as it's becoming too late.

As I was hurrying down to get up, I suddenly got bumped into something hard. I fell on my butt.

"Ouch! It hurts."

Before I could comprehend what just happened, a voice pulled me out of my trance.

"Hey, are you okay?"

"No, dumbo!" I screamed in my imaginary voice.

"It's fine," I said while getting up. I see! He offered his hands, but I acted oblivious to the fact as I have my own feet.

While shrugging off, I see a pair of brown eyes looking at me intensely.

I didn't notice him properly as far, but I am observing him now.

He is looking around my age. But his body & face are looking more mature. Like, he has grown up more than me.

"Hello!" I snapped my fingers.

"Hi," he said awkwardly.

"What are you doing here?"

"Uhm..I was just loitering," his clumsy reply.

"Whatever!" I shrugged off & started walking with my cycle.

He called me, but I ignored as getting out of the place was my first priority.

Time flew as our bond grew. He had accidentally found the place just like me.

We started to meet up in this place. His silly jokes, his dimple, his damn killing smile started to melt my heart slowly.