Didn't know he was so hot (Juicy x Eddie)

Sexuality

SELFHARM WARNING!

- Gaege's pov –

I grab a big dark grey suitcase and open it on my bed. I walk towards my closet grabbing hoodies, shirts, pants, boxers, socks, and sweatpants. I packed them neatly in my suitcase.

Once the suitcase is filled, I zip it up and put it near my door. I grabbed a smaller grey suitcase, putting it on the bed again. I walk to my bathroom grabbing my toothbrush, toothpaste, shampoo, conditioner, brush, etc. I pack all the essentials in the smaller suitcase. I zip it up and place it together with my bigger one.

I head into my bathroom, staring at my reflection. Sadness washes over me as I recall the party and what happened. I see my razor laying on the counter still. I didn't pack it since I don't want Eddie finding out I self-harm. I grab my razor, rolling up my sleeves.

I start cutting my skin like paper. Worthless, cut, stupid, cut, ugly, cut, gay, cut, and so on. A warm tear rolls down my cheek, blood dripping on the ground. I start fully breaking down now, sobbing endlessly. I lean against the bathroom tile wall and slip down, pulling my knees to my chest.

I end up crying for what feels like hours. After my tear stream finally dries, I pull myself up from the ground. I grab the med kit that sits in my bathroom cupboard. I grab some hydrogen peroxide and a cotton swab. I dip it in and dab it over my cuts slowly. I wince at the stinging from the peroxide but continue. I grab some gauze and wrap it around my arm, trying not to apply it too tight to prevent it from hurting more.

I roll my sleeve down, put the kit away and head back to my room. My eyes are still red and puffy from crying. As I walk further into my room I see a figure standing at the door, Eddie?

"Oh hey! I knocked a few times but didn't get an answer so... I let myself in, sorry." He says with a slight chuckle. Panic starts to settle in me, not knowing how long he's been here and how much he could know.

He walks closer to me. "Have you been crying?" he asks suddenly. I realize now that he probably notices how puffy my eyes are. I swallow harshly, mind racing. Should I tell him?

I feel a warm hand touching my cheek. I flinch at the sudden touch but calm down once I know it's Eddie's hand. "Gaege, what's wrong? I can clearly see that you were crying before. Please, tell me what's bothering you." He says with a soothing voice.

I feel tears rolling down my cheeks again. Fuck Gaege, keep it together! I curse myself internally. "I-" I start with a trembling voice, taking a pause for a minute. "I'm gay Eddie." I say as I start sobbing again.

Eddie pulls me close and embraces me. "Gaege, it's okay. I support you, you're my best friend." He says trying to calm me down as he rubs circles on my back with his thumb. I let out a few more choked up sobs before I finally start to calm down.

Eddie lifts my chin up with his pointer finger and wipes my tears with his thumbs. "I will always be there for you Gaege and support you no matter what. Got that?" he says with a sweet smile. I give him a nod and hug him again.

"Thank you, Eddie." I say as I look him in the eyes. We end up looking at each other for what feels like half an hour. I feel my heartbeat quicken. I suddenly feel my body moving on its own. I close the gap between us and connect my lips with his.

Fireworks exploding in my brain as I feel the softness of his lips against mine. Eddie doesn't necessarily kiss back which makes me pull back, widening my eyes. I let go of him and run to the bathroom quickly.

Locking the door behind me I let out a trembling sigh. I'm against the wall again and slide down to the floor. Fuck. Now I've really messed up.

T.b.c~

A/N: Rewrite of chapter 3! Hope you like it :D