age 15
"MADDISON!"
shit, what did harry want
"yeah?"
i call back out
"living room. NOW!"
he never raises his voice like that. i was scared, what happened for him to raise his voice. i walk out there to see everyone, not just harry
"uh- hey guys, whats up" i say casually so this isnt too serious. whatever this is
"you might want to sit down before we get started"liam states
i sit down on the couch next to liam, with harry standing in front of the couch, niall in the arm of the couch, louis on the chair beside us, and zayn leaning against the wall.
"so, to make things easier, if you want to tell us, we wont be as harsh" harry says
"tell you what?" i ask kind of confused. he looks around, then back on me
"are you cutting again maddie?" he asks. straight to the point
i pause and look around. how could they know
"um, well, you see" i trail off
"yes or no madds" louis looks at me to say
"uh- y-yes?" i say more of a question
i see niall look down, liam puts his arm around me, louis look at harry, then zayn, harry stands up and walks in a circle. and zayn looks at me, saddened.
"thanks for being honest" niall says
i feel like im about to cry, how did they find out? what did i do?
"h-how, did you guys? y'know... figure it out" i have to ask
"youve had jumpers, and long sleeved clothes with blood on them, which youve hidden to try to clean them later on. razors out of place or missing, and i grabbed you by the wrist the other day and i saw your face change, it was subtle, but i could notice it."
zayn states looking over at us
"so we need to do something about this" harry says "l-like what?" i ask back
"maybe some rules might help" liam suggested still with his arm around me and i want to cringe at what liam just said
"we just dont want you to go down this path, we just wanna help" harry tells me
"what are these fucking rules then"i see them huff, obviously not wanting me to swear, but 1. they're not my dad, and 2. i dont really give a shit.
"so some of these might be harsh, but we need to" liam said tightening his grip on my shoulder, which i cant tell whether its to say, 'its alright' or to restrain me from leaving the conversation.
"and what if i dont agree"
"hospital" harry answered very quickly
"no. i- im not going to the hospital because of this" i say back to him now pissed off
"well then you will need to follow the rules" zayn chimed in and now i want to punch him in the face
"fucking hell. what are they" i also want to punch harry now, and whoever came up with this idea.
louis looks around and starts "so 1, you cant lock any doors" thats not too bad. i nod, im sur eill get used to it "2. after using the bathroom, we need to check your wrists and thighs. to make sure you havent cut" louis says again
"what makes you think i cut my thighs" i say in response trying to get out of this awkward interaction which will happen from now on
"well then there will be no problem" niall commented
"i hate you guys"
"3. we will try to start off small, but what ever we give you, you need to ACTUALLY try to eat it" louis says. it seems like hes saying the rules then
"come on! this is uh- this so fucking unfair" i say back annoyed.
"well then its the hospital" harry mentioned again, i really want to break his nose right now
"is that the last rule?"
"not quite, 4. we need you to take your meds. we know that your not, and just pretending" louis says once again
"ill see" i say, and i wont be taking my meds
"theres another one, 5. you cant do to much exercise by yourself, we need to be there" now i want to give louis a black eye now. "what if i just want to get fit? i have to train" i questioned
"we still need to be there, sorry" liam tried to comfort me by saying, but im not comforted
"and we need to go through some stuff, like to get rid of sharp stuff, and pills and stuff" harry told me, only with a bit of sympathy in his voice. i think hes mad i didnt tell him
"why dont i just give you a pile of it, instead of you going through my stuff" i ask "how will we know that you have given us everything." niall asks me back "we just dont want to risk it" louis says after niall
"i dont want you guys going through my stuff" i say back shrugging
"why, is it something we will find?" zayn questioned
"no, just. i dont want you guys. never mind" i say just wanting to leave. i go to get up when liam holds onto my hand "please just sit"
i turn around with tears forming in my eyes. i never cry, this is something new
"no" is all i can say as i told back tears
"just let her go liam" harry told him
he lets go and i walk off into my room, with the feeling like im going to cry, but im not going to. i never cry, i cant start now.
i fall onto my bed, and even though its only like 9 in the morning i go to sleep. i go to sleep at around 1 in the morning, so now i might actually get some sleep, but i feel like crying while im trying to sleep.
but i never cry
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Fanfictionthe story of a girl whose brother, partner, friends and herself are all famous, and the way she manages one of the hardest roads to go along -harry styles sister -tom holland X reader its pretty basic and shitty at the start, but gets more detailed...
