CHANCES (L.T.)

~~~FIFTY FIVE~~~

Austin's POV.

I walked off the stage letting the tears fall down freely. I was tired of always trying to act like someone I wasn't. I was tired of trying to make everything look okay when it is no where near it. 

I walk past some of the security they yell calling my name but I dont listen. I walk right past them. I find the nearest exit sign to the roof. I dont know the roof but it has always been my got to place. 

I open the light door leading out to the cold roof top. I walk out towards the ledge. I climb over sitting on the ledge. My feet dangle down. I see the cars passing down. This place didnt give a view like the hotel. But it was still was a view. 

I hear the door behind me open. I already know who it was. I was prepared to be dragged out of here. I wiped my tear stained cheeks. 

But I was a bit surprised that dad came and sat by my side. He didn't say a word just sat with me. Something he hadn't really done in a while. It was silent and in simple words nice. 

"You know I am sorry right?" He asks me softly. 

"Yeah" I say. I know he didnt do anything on purpose. 

"I just got really scared... You disappeared without a word  you weren't picking up your phone. It just scared me so much... Austin you have understand you are all I have to call my own. I dont have anyone other than you around. I cant bare it if something has to you. I will blame it on myself for the rest my life. I already screwed up with you once I cant do that again. I am really sorry for everything... I am sorry I didnt see what was going on with you. I am sorry I didnt notice any of this" He says.

"I am sorry" I say softly. I caused so much pain. I knew I couldn't do anything right. 

"Hey look at me... You have nothing to be sorry about. I am the one that messed up this time okay? You did nothing wrong here. All you did was show me how you are. Now that I know trust me I will do everything to make things okay again. I promise" Dad says. 

I could feel another tear roll down my cheek. I was tired I really was but this time was wasn't alone. I had dad with me.

He wrapped his arms around my shoulders. We sit in silence for a bit more before dad breaks it again 

"You know she couldn't be more proud of you right? You made it this far. You are talented you. You are being you and she couldn't be more happy neither could I" He says pressing a kiss on the top of my head. 

"She wouldn't be gone if I tried harder" I say softly almost hoping that he wouldn't hear me. 

"It isn't your fault... Allison made that decision she wanted to go. She didn't want to suffer longer she wanted her break. She deserved a break after everything. Austin nothing lasts forever but we have these moments that make us last forever. So in reality everything lasts forever for you" He says. But I couldn't help but think that was true. Mom was wrong she said nothing lasted forever but she was wrong.

He was right everyday I think about mom how she dropped me off at school for my first day... That day in the we spent at the park... The day she got my first guitar... There was so many moments. 

We sit there for a while more before dad says "We should get back inside Niall is probably looking for us" I nod and we get up from the ledge. 

"Did you know he facetimed Liam and showed him the whole thing?" Louis asked. 

"Did you know he had a complete mad man mode?" I counter back. 

He shakes his head and laughs "15 years of friendship and you'd think you'd know the guy but noooo he needs to put you and the edge again" 

"Well all the best with that" I say letting out a light chuckle. 

Louis's POV. 

We were making our way down the stairs when my phone rang. I pulled it out. 

Aldrin  It read 

My manager... Shit... This show that Austin did was great and it cleared up so many things but I still have a shitty excuse for a manager who wont let me make the decisions for my kid. I blocked the call. I will deal with him tomorrow...