CHANCES (L.T.)

~~~FORTY~~~

Ahhhh I never thought I would be writing chapter forty!!!
Okay I am gonna stop now enjoy the  chapter :)

Austin's pov.

I heard some shuffling behind me I knew then it self that it was louis and I didn't want to really talk to him.

"I really don't want to talk to you louis " I say my voice coming out a weakly.

"I am not leaving until you listen to me" he says sternly.

"I don't want to listen to you just leave!" I shout.

"You are being unfair! You won't even let me explain you only know her story her side of it all but what about mine don't you think I deserve a chance?!" Louis shouts back frustrated.

I was being unfair to him I never let him explain maybe if I gave him a chance our relationship would me different or it would be the same but I can't judge without giving him a chance.

Louis's pov.

He did not say anything so I took that as the opportunity to start.

I fell to my knees looking at her tombstone I took a shake breath.

"I met her in high school. She was the most amazing woman I have ever seen. She was smart, funny, creative,  beautiful and not mention she stuck with me through all the shit I did. I loved her with everything I had I would be in jail or something if I did not have her around." I say I could feel Austin's eyes on me but I kept a steady gaze in the tombstone.

"There was this one time when we went to a party. There was this one guy Brandon he was just visiting Doncaster. He tried to hit on her. I got so pissed I wanted to punch the guy but she told me not to. I would have beaten the shit out of him of it wasn't for her. So I left it." I say feeling the anger rise in me.

I took in another shaky breath the anger was melting away and all that was left was emptiness . I could feel the tears falling down my cheeks

"But the guy did not stop hitting on her. She used to work in a cafe before for extra pocket money he would come there and flirt with her and sort of harass her. I really wanted to take this guy but she kept saying that it was nothing and she was fine. But as time passed I knew she wasn't fine with it. So I took stuff into my own hands I found this Brandon guy and beat the Shit out him. The problem was that I didn't know who I was messing with. He told me that I would regret this at the time but I did not take it seriously" I say now looking at him.

"Then I went for X Factor you know I auditioned got through but then put in a band with the others etc. Then we were signed into Simon ' s record label. That was when we met Simon ' s right hand man and his son. The right hand man was William and his son was Brandon. I knew then it self that I was screwed. Brandon said that he could easily destroy the boys and my career by telling his father about me. I begged him not to. I mean I could not risk the boys career because of me. I knew at the end he wanted to hurt where it would hurt the most. So he said that if I ever contacted Allison again he would ruin all of it for us and more importantly he would hurt her. And I would never be able to deal with myself if anything happened to her because of me." I said my voice sounding weak from just thinking about it. At the end she did leave... And I am here without her.

"I swear I would have come back I would have protected the two of you I... I did not mean to leave just like that without a word I wanted to tell her everything but I couldn't. I thought I was doing the right thing by staying away from her but I guess I wasn't ....." I say feeling the tears roll down my cheeks.

You may think that is all has happened but there is so much more to this..

"A month before she....." I took yet another shakey breath.

"I got a call from an unknown number. When I picked it up and it was her. She did not say much but all she said was that she needed to meet me so I travelled to Doncaster. Because I split ways with Simon and Brandon couldnt do anything to me anymore. And I know i left Simon a long time ago I could have come back earlier but I wasnt man enough to face her after everything." Guilt was washing over me now.

"She said she would text me the address. But whe I saw the address was a hospital I did not expect what I saw.  I thought maybe her brother was sick or something. But when I came into the room I saw her there. It broke me to see her like that" my voice cracking at the end. I composed myself wipping the tears off.

"I never told her anything about Brandon. I didn't feel like this was the right time" I say my voice now hoarse.

"The conversation was me freaking out and her just acting like her being in the hospital was normal. She then told me about the cancer. She didn't tell me about the surgery but I found out because a nurse came in asking her what her final decision about the surgery was. I flipped at her I told she had to take the surgery but she kept refusing it I told her I would pay for it but she still said no. I was really frustrated with her but she did not move from her word. "

"After that she told me about you. I wanted to yell at her for not  telling me but she wasn't really at fault here. I would have known if I came back but I didn't so this was on me. I wanted to meet you then and there. But that was when she told me you hated me and I can't blame you I am the king of jerks. " I saw . I hated that it was the truth.

"When I left that day I made a lot of promises to her and I kept all of them. I promised her that I would never come back to see her, I would not come to the funeral, I would not go looking for you and the last one was the most important one which I seem to be failing to full fill I would take care you with everything I had"

"I really am sorry Austin for the things I have caused you to go through but I really cannot bare it. I lost her I cannot afford to loose you as well. You are all I have left and I can't afford to screw things  with you" I finish.

He didn't say anything no emotion was on his face. It scared me to know what he was thinking.

He leaped into my arms and hugged me. I was taken my shock but I hugged I hugged him back just as tight. He really is  all I have.

The End

I am kidding !

Anyway what do you guys think? We are so close to the end only one  more chapter to go! I love this chapter so much.

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