CHANCES (L.T.)

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Austin's pov.

"Get working you little brat and clean the toilets " Brett the guy who I unfortunately work for screams.

I role my eyes at the idiot and grab the stuff required to clean the disgusting toilets of this shitty pawn shop.

Oh wait I did not tell you who I am. Well I am Austin and I am 14 years old I live in Doncuster UK. 

Well here is where the question arises what is a 13 year old boy doing in a pawn shop? To understand that you need to know my whole story. And let me tell you it is long and there is a lot going on.

It all started on my 5th birthday.

~~~~ FLASH BACK~~~~

"Happy birthday to you!!!" my mom sang as she layed my small birthday cake on the table. I smiled at her as she sang for me.

"Blow out the candles and make a wish honey" mom said.

I blew the candles and made the same wish I made the last 2 birthdays.

"I wish my dad will come back"

we cut the small cake and then switched on the television and we started to watch my favourite show. 

As we started to watch my favourite  I asked my mom the question I always asked her but this time I asked more questions than just that one question.

"Mommy where did daddy go?" I ask.

She took a deep breath before she answered "He had to leave honey " she said with a soft smile on her face.

"But why?"

"He had to go cause he wanted to follow his dream" She replied.

"Will he come back?" I asked cause I myself was not certain as to what the answer will be.

"One day he will come back and he will love you more than you will ever know." she says.

I turn back to watching the television before I ask again "Can you tell me about him?"

My mom smiles "Oh there is so much to tell about him. For starters you are every much like him. He is  sweet ,charming , caring , and not to mention loud but he has this heart of gold that one can compare to. "

"What was his dream?" I ask.

"Oh he had a lot of crazy dreams but among them the one he wanted most was to play football professionally but he later wanted to sing"

We sat in moments of silence until I asked my final question. "What was his name?"

My mom did not respond fast but she did in the end. "His name was Louis Tomlinson"

~~~~ FLASH BACK OVER~~~~

Ever since that day I did everything I could to make him proud of me when he comes back. I started to play football. But unfortunately I could not afford to go for real coaching so I taught myself how to play , just some simple skills.

When I was 8 my mom got me a guitar cause I was always pestering her to do so. Again we could not afford the lessons so I learnt a bit with the help of some video's online. 

I wanted to just be like him but at the same time I really did enjoy playing football and guitar. I looked up to him a lot. Everything I did I thought of what he might say or do and I did it that way. 

But my opinion on him changed 2 years ago when I realised what really happened between my mom and him.

2 years ago my mom got diagnosed with brain cancer. The treatment was way to expensive for us to pay on our own. So I asked her why not call dad and ask him to help us? But she said that we could not ask him.

I got mad at the fact as to why she cant ask him. That is when she told me that Louis left as in left us forever. My mom and louis dated when they were in  high school. And she realised she was pregnant with me  a couple of days before louis left for X-Factor. She did not want to tell him cause then he would not go and would stay here with her. So she never told him and she thought when he gets back she will tell him. 

Before Louis left he promised my mum the he would come back. But we all know how that ended. He never came back. And because of that I hate everything about him. I even hated myself for wanting to be like him. I tried to stop playing football and guitar but that did not work cause that was my way of calming down.

So now my mom is fighting cancer and to help with her treatment I work here. But why did I work in a really crappy pawn shop? well that is because no other place would hire a 13 year old boy without even a middle school degree.

Yup you heard it right I do not have a middle school degree because I stopped going to school 6 months ago because we could not afford it. But my mom does not know that I stopped going to school. Well the reason behind that is that she will stop her medication if she knew I stopped going to school.

Well actually she would have definitely stopped when I got kicked out of the house cause we could pay the rent any more. So yeah I now live with my neighbours Laura and her twin children Kate and Ashley for the past 2 month. I begged her not to tell mom about it and she agreed. But even she does not know I dont go to school anymore she and mom think I am at school right now.

A month ago the doctors said that the brain tumour was still growing and that only a surgery will be able to help mom. But again the surgery was very expensive but the hospital's organisation told us that we could pay it in instalments. I was ready for that cause I already have a part of the cash ready but my mom denied to do the surgery. I dont get it we can pay for it yet she does not want it?

So now I am waiting for my mum to die. It really is funny people tell us that god is a saviour to all and yet that he is going to let the one person who means the world to me to die?

Well that is my story. But at that moment I could not have been more wrong. My story was only beginning.

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A.N.

Well this is my new story I hope you all like it pls comment and vote. 

And sorry for the spelling errors.

Lots of love

-S