The power that lays within

Felling lost

Lloyd's prov

"Well ummm where all glad you back and everything but why'd you come back?" Jay asked.
"To worn you that something evil is coming.....really powerful more powerful than any you have fought against....I don't know if this is a fight you can win" I say
"Well warning taken well handle it now bye" Cole said sounding a bit angry.
"Well ok then bye" I started to make my way and I was stoped by something or should I says someone's arms around me. 'well ok I don't think I can leave'.
I look down to see Kai hugging me. I look in front of me to see my dragon accompanied with me dad, uncle and Morro blocking the exit.

"Please stay Cole didn't mean it" Kai said letting go of me.
"Fine"
"Good because we could use your help if it's as strong as you say it is" Wu said looking at me thankful.
"What help will he be...he'll just be in the way" Cole. 'Ok he is really starting to piss me off'.
I sigh as I walked away inside the monastery. Little did they know is I was strong than what they though. Even stronger than Morro has witnessed. Stronger and more powerful than my uncles prophecy knew.

As I stated to walk up the stars I heard everyone else come in. "Lloyd's you can use the room from last time" my uncle informed me. I just gave a simple nod.
One I was in the room I lifted up my shirt to see that I was beading throw them. I walked to the bathroom and looked in the cabinet luckily I found some bandages and re-raped myself. I went over to the bed a fell straight asleep.

When I woke up it was night time I knew that the ninja, my dad and uncle would be a sleep. I look to my side to see Morro asleep on the floor by me. I got out of bed and picked up Morro and put him in my bed. 'Well Morro don't you think that was taking protective big brother over the top' I thought to myself as I left my room going to my old spot. The roof. Once I got up there I started to sing.

Warning this song will contain suicidal thoughts and more.

(Hey I wrote this so please don't judge it but let me know if it's good its like a song thing so yeah)

Feeling alone by me

Do you know that feeling that you get when you surrounded by people.
When it gets hard to breath
It feels like there's a weight on you chest.
Like the walls are closing in.
And you feel like everyone is looking at you.
What no? That must be good.
Because that's how I feel.
It horrible.
I've tried tracing it back to where it came from.
But I cant find where it came from.
I must've always been this way.
Always been broken.

I feel lost.
What am I meant to do.
I mean I don't know what I'm meant to do.
Because every thing I do I feel like I just made a mess.
For someone to clean up.
I just.....
I'm Lost and alone.
If I told you what I thought in my head you'd probably think I was crazy and leave.
That's what I'm scared of.
Not of being alone.
But being classed as broken.

I hate it
That feeling of anxiety.
That overwhelming feeling like I'm just a mess.
I hate feeling useless.
What can I do that some one can't do.
I'm noting special.
I'm not.
I'm just me.
Someone who is a emotional scarred. 
Not just emotional but physically.
Scars that have been left there by other to remind me that I'm nothing.
They nether fade there always going to be a part of me.

I praise my self after a long hard day.
For not doing what I was thinking
For not hurting my self.
Some nights I feel like just ending it all,
Who am I kidding that's more often than not.
Trust me when I say I know way to die.
Too many.
Some are fast and the pain don't last,
Others are slow and that entertains me,
But I feel like I deserve this.
Like if I was to just end it all it would be a blessing.
I should sit back and live this hell.
Ride it like a rollercoaster.

There are many ways to hurt yourself.
More than most people know.
There listening and believing every bad word you hear is about you.
And when you get praised there just doing it for pity.
Well guess what I'm not a charity case.
I list many more but where'd me here all day.
I feel like at some point I just going to brake 
Brake in front of people 
And with that there not going back.
I make sure not to brake until everyone's in bed.
And I'm alone
Well I'm always alone.

After I finished singing a few tears fell down the side of my face I looked up to the sky and fell asleep.

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I really do hope you liked this chapter.