The power that lays within

Lost

Lloyd's POV
Unfortunately it didn't take long for Cole to recover. As I was walking away Cole said confused and angry at the same time "what the hell was that?"

I paused for a moment and looked over my shoulder. They where right I'm not a ninja anymore. "When you asked me who I am and I replied I'm a ninja, I was wrong" I spoke confidently. This made Cole smile I could tell he was confused. Well I did just admit to being wrong confidently. "I'm a fighter, a warrior, I'm a protector"

I turned round to face them completely now. They all had shock looks on there faces, even my dad uncle and Morro. "I'm a shield. I'm a sword. I shield those who need a shield even with my own life. I'm a sharp sword that never dulls that always fights and is never retired. I'm a weapon" with that I turned around and walked away.

I didn't want to go back there. All least for awhile. Who knows what's going on. And quite frankly I don't plan to find out. I walked down the mountain and in to the forest near by.

While my feet carry me my mind was blank. I was walking like a robot. But I guess that's what I am. I don't feel much. That's how I was made. How I was modelled.

If I was crying. Weak, and weak makes me useless and I didn't want to be useless. So I stoped crying. I bottle it up. I don't know when I'll break but that doesn't matter as long as no-one is around.

Love. Weakness. If you love someone or cherish someone can be used as weakness. If you cherish something can be used as leverage. Putting you in a tough spot.

Emotions. Emotions get in the way. They hold you back. If you feel compassion, loyalty love there problems. Pain. If you don't know how to ignore it not matter how much then you can't survive.

I just.....I just don't get why we live. Like whats the point. We live, we die. It's unavoidable. Why does life matter so much. It's complicated and meaningless. All we do is hurt. We either hurt someone or get hurt. It's unavoidable. "I just don't get it!" I yelled out into the forest and pulled at my hair.

I stoped by a lake. By now it was night time. The sky was black with a few stars, that are reflecting in the lake's water.
I sat on the cold grass near the lake edge and began to sing.

"This may be the last sunset I'll see
So I'll take it in, I'll take it in
This may be the last air that I'll breathe
So I'll breathe it in, I'll breathe it in
I heard that pictures don't change
Just the people inside of 'em do
Whoever told you that life would be easy
I promise that person was lyin' to you
You got a problem with followin' through
That's why I got a problem with followin' you
You keep lookin' at me like this problem is new
But we've been here before, what you tryin' to do?
Don't talk to me like I don't know what you feeling
Cause I was there with you back in the beginning
Quit looking away when I talk, let me finish
I'm tryna be honest, you're tryna forget me, ugh
What's wrong with you, hey?
I know that you got a lot on your plate
You keep telling me I should get out of your way
But I can't see how you gon' lie to my face
Don't tell me you fine cause I know that you not
So don't even try
And what we gon' live for in this life full of pain
Till we're eighty and wonder when we'll get up and say we regretted our lives
That's where we going
Do not pretend like you don't even notice
Funny thing is that you already know it
I'm starting to think that you like how I feel so be lost in the moment
Lost, lost in the moment
Lost in the moment, lost in the moment
And get lost, lost in the moment
Lost in the moment, lost in the moment
Yeah, they told us that time flies, didn't know what it means
Now I feel like we just running around tryna
Catch it and hoping to cut up its wings
But that ain't gon' happen
Joy, when was the last time we had it?
I don't remember cause all that we do
Is go backwards but that's what you get
When you live in the past
And I know we breathing but we not alive
Really, is this the way we wanna die?
'Til you got everything bottled inside
If only they knew what goes on in our minds
I know what you thinking so don't try to hide
Why do you look at me like you surprised?
If you really mean what you write in these lines
Why don't you fix it? Cause I'm getting tired
Yeah, I can no longer do this
Ever since you fell in love with the music
You find a way to express what you feel
But the moment that you get away from the mic, you don't know what you doing
Is it clear to you yet?
I don't know what's going on in your head
But eventually, you'll have to deal with the things
That you talk about yeah, but I guess until then, we're lost
Lost, lost in the moment
Lost in the moment, lost in the moment
And get lost, lost in the moment
Lost in the moment, lost in the moment
Yeah, oh, yeah, oh lost
Oh, yeah, oh, no no
This may be the last sunset i'll see
So I'll take it in, I'll take it in
This may be the last air that I'll breathe
So I'll breathe it in, I'll breathe it in"

Once I finished I remember that I can't go yet so, I just took in the site for a little longer before falling a sleep. If I die I will die fighting. With that thought sleep took over me.